Forsaken. What is the reason for angels dying

Welcome I hope you enjoy the story. The previous ones I wrote I decided to delete because I was just fooling around with the writing. This story I won't be playing around and the true creative mind of Seto Takahashi will be shown. The story itself is a rewriting of the story with some changes and a more dark and mature tone. Thank you very much for reading It is much appreciated.
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"God has forsaken me. His eyes, arms, and heart has forsaken me. That is the reason for my constant suffering from this other spirit." Ichigo spoke to himself approaching sleep.
Life had been eternally hard for him when the incident of his mother's death came into fruition. The sparkle in his eyes, the glow of happiness seized as if it never existed. He kept to himself ever since then.
His school life was no different. He made few friends and the ones he made knew very little of who he truly was. No one would want to know of a monster like him ,no they were to busy with their own affairs of happiness for it to be hampered by himself.
He had very little want in this world. The only desire he upheld in this world was the chance to have happiness like everyone else. A great escape was what he seek but shattered hopes was what he was granted.
Not to much longer after losing his mother he lost someone else important to him. He had lost his father.
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Flashback
"Ichigo come on lets play outside" Yuzu and Karin asked him.
Refusing like he usually did he stumbled to his room and collapsed in his bed letting sleep succumb him. The dream he witnessed haunted him for the rest of his life.

"Hello Ichigo. Ha ha ha you little bitch mother fucker. I can't believe I have to share a body with such a pussy ass fuck who killed his mother." The voice kept on saying.
Sweat poured down Ichigo's face as he once again witnessed his mothers death before his eyes. She was devoured by the spirit he wished to help. The blood and bones falling right beside his feet. The guts of his mother spilled upon his being. Desperately he tried to put his mother's body back together hoping that would help. It was too late however and tears streaked down his face.
He would never be rid of these scenes in his head. His mother the most important person to him in the whole world was killed because of his ignorance.
"Ha ha ha. You little weak ass bitch you think that was bad. How about we peer into your future and see what fate has in stored for you." the voice said thoroughly delighted at what his tortures were doing to the soul he was doomed to share a body with.
The next vision that he witnessed made his blood boil to a new low.
His father taking a trip to the store to buy medicine for his younger sister Karin walked back home.
On the way back a car dodging the cops hit him causing blood to blind his vision.
He knew what the whole thing meant. His father was next to die. And he would be powerless to stop it. He would try undoubtedly to stop it but it would be a futile attempt.
Yuzu then woke up Ichigo shaking him harshly in order to wake him.
"Ichigo wake up. Karin has a fever" she said.
The time has come and he was already too late.
His father was informed of this twenty minutes ago and hadn't come home yet.
"Damn" Ichigo said with tears streaking down his face.
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"Would it really bother anyone if I were to die my own self righteous suicide? God hath forsaken me it is my right for doing this. Would he cry for him being the cause of angels dying?" he questioned truly contemplating death as his salvation.

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Thank you for reading. I know that it was brief in information but I thought it was important to show the mood in the first chapters just so people could take a feel of the story and see it the like it.