Always~

You know how someone can mean so much to you? How it seems like they are your world or always have been? Always there for you, caring for you and even being with you in mind as well? Well I do, I know the feeling completely...well almost completely. I know you can love either Men or Women if you are either, it doesn't matter. Love doesn't choose based on genitalia.​I have always been an adult...well not always but even when people said I was a child, I wasn't. Of course for the first 15 years maybe...but the truth was I for some reason just stayed the size of a ten year old for over 110 years. That is right, I am actually over 110. I recently just began to grow into that of a woman. Just like my growth waited to hit me, so did puberty. I am now going through the pains and confusions of it at 110.


My name is Yachiru Kusajishi, I have long pink hair. I always kept it short because Ken-chan liked it that short. He said it didn't get in the way of running in battles. So I listened to him, considering I was always on his back or shoulder. But it wasn't until recently I began to walk beside him. He hardly noticed...he hardly noticed anything. But I didn't mind that, he was my captain and my best friend. My hair was still bubblegum pink, I had long deep bangs that were straight across. I had long straight hair that went to my mid back, Yumichika always cut and trimmed my hair. He thought this style would look good on me, I cannot complain. I really like it, it makes me feel like one of those beautiful dancers in the human world...geisha? I think that is what they are called.

My body is slender and firm, I have muscle​s...not like Ken-chan. But I do have muscles, my height is 5'5. I am happy to finally be growing. I notice other squad members look at me differently too now. I liked it in a way, I don't understand why sometimes they say the things they do. But I am excited because tonight is a dinner for the squad and I am going to attend it!

The Realization

For what ever reason I felt really uncomfortable when the words came from the guys mouth. He was nothing special in our squad, just another warrior. But when the words came out of his mouth that night while I was helping to pass out cups for the dinner.

"Hey Lieutenant you have tits now?! Woah, look at them!" He cackled tossing around the rice wine he had in his glass. The others around him began to laugh.

I bit my lip and began to walk away, I felt so uncomfortable in the situation I hadn't noticed one of them bring there hands to my backside. They slapped me hard and made me fall forward. I winced at the pain and was surprised to be caught in his arms. Kenpachi held me firmly but gently, I hadn't even notice him approach. I always did...did these guys really upset me that much? My eyes widened as I looked up to him, he looked up at the two guys laughing. He listened to there words.

"She has a nice ass too now!Damn we are lucky, wonder how long until she sucks my dick?" The one that assaulted me asked the other.

I bit my lip and looked away from my captains eyes, I couldn't look at him with their words surrounding the room. I felt as though I was going to die of embarrassment and gently he pushed me aside. It was weird being gently pushed, but Ken-chan always did it. I turned and watched as he unsheathed his sword and in an instant sliced downwards. I saw the sword cut through the guy that touched me, his hand fell to the ground and almost instantly the room went silent and all that could be heard was his howls.

"You touched her." My captain spoke.

I couldn't help but gasp, I moved my hand to my mouth. The man scrambled to the ground and tried getting to his feet. " It was an accident! I swear."

"Now you are lying to me." He growled, his voice sounding like a dog snarling over his owner. Like he was protecting me. I watched as Ken-chan's sword sliced the man once more, the man stopped moving and I looked up to see him lifting the other that had spoken to me offensively.

"It was just an o-observation sir."

Ken-chan grinned and lifted the man in the air. " Make note of this squad. Anyone who even dares to say anything of this topic again." He paused and looked into my eyes "Unwillingly." He let his face go and he yelled once more " Will be punished." He dropped the guy to his knees and in one movement he swung his sword letting the head fall off slowly. I was used to the violence that surrounded me. It didn't bother me anymore. ​

​Kenpachi sheathed his sword and he spoke once more " Yachiru. Follow me." He spoke low. " Someone clean this up." He said stepping on the hand he had taken off earlier.
I watched as he walked forward a bit, he waited a moment and I caught up. I didn't understand...what had just happen. I mean I did, but I didn't expect that to happen from the situation. When he went to his room he took his captains robe off and tossed it on the bed and sat cross legged near the table in the center of his room. I walked over to the table and knelt to the floor.

"You're ok right?" He spoke gruffly.

Why wouldn't I be? " I-I am fine." I assured.

"I apologize for their behavior." It was the first time I had ever heard him say he was sorry. I swallowed hard in surprise and knew he wanted a reaction or answer but he spoke before I could. " Surprised?"

"A little Ken-chan."

"I am glad you still call me that."

"Why wouldn't I?"

He turned to me, his green eyes looked to my face. " You are changing Yachiru."

I looked down " You will always be my Ken-chan no matter how I change."

He chuckled a deep gruff laugh and turned his body to me "Your thoughts are changing too." He ensured.

"W-what do you mean?"

"You don't climb on my back anymore, for obvious reasons." He brought a hand to his shoulder and pointed with a grin.

He did notice..."Well..I am getting bigger."

"Yeah you are, but I couldn't help but notice my shoulder getting more and more tense."

It was true!I used to always be there punching his back in a playful way, I guess one could probably think of it as a massage. I instinctively moved over to his shoulders and began to move my fingers on his skin. His body was warm and firm. I felt my face flush, why am I blushing? I heard a low moan come from him as I pressed my hands harder to his shoulder blades.

"I think you got it Yachiru."

"O-oh...Sorry." I spoke getting up quickly to find myself pulled back into his lap. My eyes widened and my cheeks darkened. I felt silly and young all over again. He let my wrist go and brought it to my hair. He pulled a strand from my neatly brushed bubblegum hair and brought it to his lips. I felt my heart pulsing through my body, my hands trembled as he kissed my hair and closed his eyes to smell it softly. "K-Ken chan." I blushed pulling away. " What...are you...doing..."

"Admiring your beauty." He chuckled low in his throat. His voice was so low and smooth, it felt like a new voice I had never heard before. I liked the way it made me tremble. He let my hair fall to my chest and he moved his fingers to my chin and pulled my face to his" Don't let what they said bother you ok?" He spoke to me between heavy lidded eyes.

I bit my lip and spoke " Y-yes sir." It was the first thing that came to me, I couldn't think clear.

He chuckled and asked "They really made you uncomfortable didn't they?" He asked.

The truth yes they did, they made me feel like I had to go shower and clean my self from their words. I didn't even understand why they said it but I knew they felt wrong to my ears.I nodded blushing.I looked back to him nervously to see his eyes still on me, I looked away again. I finally spoke " Why did you look at me like that when you said unwillingly?"

"I don't forbid you from dating Yachiru. I am not one to do that."

"Your not?" I chuckled knowing he really was.

"I just want you to want it." He made it sound like he was talking about something else, the way he spoke the words 'it'.I felt bold enough to ask.

"It Kenny?"I questioned looking at him.

"You know...sex...kissing and that kind of game."

I felt my cheeks flare red " KENPACHI!" I looked away nervous.

He laughed a loud cackle, I was still on his lap and his laughter was taunting. I felt like melting all over again. " What is it my little one?" He asked me in this voice that made me feel comfortable. I looked up to him.

"I don't know...its just...I don't even know what this sex is. I mean I know the technical aspects of it...but...I don't see what is so great." I rolled my eyes shrugging. I really didn't understand it. I had heard Yumichika and Ikkaku having sex with one another and they made it sound amazing...it couldn't possibly be that great,could it?

"You have never touched yourself sweetheart."

Before he could even finish the sentence completly my hand was over his mouth, I looked away. "N-no!Why would I do that!"

He brought his hands to my hand and took my wrist gently and turned it over. I watched with astonishment as he put his lips to my wrist, he kissed it gently. Which made me dizzy at the sensation. I felt my eyes spinning and I tried to gain focus on my vision but couldn't. I fell forward onto his shoulders and he continued to kiss my wrist, he traced circles over my sensitive skin.

"K-ken chan I feel dizzy."

"That's a good thing my Yachiru."

"W-what are you doing?"

"Kissing you."

"W-why?"

"Are you so blind Yachiru?"

I felt blinded by his actions and couldn't help but not say anything. He continued. " I have always thought of you in these kinds of ways."

Then it all made sense to me, he had kept me alive for this purpose...sex. This sex was kept me alive. I felt tears rush to the corners of my eyes. "O​h...I didn't realize that."

He must have felt my tears or my trembling or maybe even both because as soon as I started he calmed me with his hands. They were so gentle. " Maybe that didn't come out the way it should have. Yachiru. I have always loved you in this kind of way.Are you dense?"

I widened my eyes and pulled back to look at him but felt his arms pull me into his lips​. I felt his firm and smooth lips touch mine and he kissed me. I felt dizzy all over again and couldn't help but breath heavy. I kissed him back, I couldn't explain it to you why I did this. But I felt so warm and so happy to have him that close again. It felt like a reunion again. He pulled back and whispered. " Ok, I might be a little against you dating."

I couldn't help but giggle at his words " Why is that." I looked up into his eyes.

"Because I think you have stolen something from me long ago."

"W-what." I looked to him for an answer.

"My heart. But I don't want it back." He brought his hand up and waived it away genuinely " Instead I am going to steal yours now."

"Ken-chan...I don't know maybe you are getting a little hungry for 'that' and just think I am really pretty because of that but-

"NO!" He growled, I didn't tremble. " I will wait. I have waited this long, before I told you to leave me, to run and hide for safety but you refused. At that moment I knew you had stolen my heart. Like I said I waited this long, I can wait some more. I want you to be ready."

No one ever told me words had weight...but these ones did and the only word that was heavier in my brain than all of them was...realization. ​

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Author note: This was a random story that just kicked me in the face. I don't know what made me want to do this...really I have not a clue. No picture or story. Just kind of hit me when I was watching Kenpachi's flashbacks and then it occurred to me. Hmmm...I wonder. So tell me what you think of my new story. This is also a new way of writing...first person.Review please!