Silent Tears

I do not own Bleach.
WARNING YAOI (MALE X MALE) LEMON IN THIS CHAPTER. DON'T LIKE...DO NOT READ!

Random fan: Wow. Byakuya and that mystery guy are having a little too much fun, aren't they?
Me: *grins widely* yes...yes they are.
Random fan: Toshiro is jealous?! What about Renji?
Me: Toshiro loves Renji very very much, but like every person out there he has his secrets too.
Random fan: I am actually kind of scared to keep reading this.
Me: *pouts* why?
Random fan: You are going to torture this poor characters aren't you?
Me: Nope. Another two day time skip. :) Also the mystery guy is revealed.

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Time: 7 PM

Place: On the way to the dinner Hitsugaya planned for Renji

When: Two days from last chapter

Toshiro was walking to the restaurant with Renji thinking long and hard about telling him all of his secrets before things went any further. He loved Renji with most, if not all, of his heart and he felt as though Renji didn't deserve to be lied to anymore. Over the past few days, they had seen Byakuya and his new found lover more than once and from what it looked like it was all accidental. Even on the day that Toshiro just had to say something to get them to pull away from one another, they had looked a bit embarrassed at being caught in such a compromising position. Needless to say that day, Byakuya had brought a coat to work when he came back from lunch. They were about a few blocks away from the restaurant when suddenly Toshiro stopped Renji.

"Renji before we go to this dinner, I have to tell you something about my past. I don't want to lie to you anymore and I feel as though if I don't speak up now and you find out...I may lose you.", Toshiro said to him looking up into Renji's eyes.

Renji looked at him concerned. "What's wrong Toshiro?", he asked him.

"It's about that guy Byakuya is currently seeing.", Toshiro began.

"Oh you mean Captain-", Renji started to say but Toshiro gave him a glare that warned him not to even speak his name.

"Yes, him.", Toshiro said and before Renji could interrupt again he finished his train of thought. "That guy. He was my first relationship, my first...lover. I did not give myself to him obvious as I gave myself to you, but he gave himself to me and well yeah. I understand if you want to end our relationship now, but I just wanted to let you know that before anything else happens between us.", Toshiro said to him.

"So you and the guy Byakuya is currently all over were lovers at one point?", Renji asked confirming the information that he had just heard.

"Yes.", Toshiro answered looking away afraid that Renji was going to leave him now.

"That would explain why you reacted the way you did, but you know what Toshiro...", Renji said and much to Toshiro's annoyance picked him up. "I don't care. I know that you love me and I trust you. So what if you had a lover in the past and I will admit a rather attractive one as well. You stayed with me even though you said you could at one point I truly loved Byakuya. This is no different than that. I am not going to leave you because you used to love and be with someone else. I told you before and I shall say it again. I love you Toshiro Hitsugaya.", Renji said and then gave him a light kiss on the lips and placed him down.

"You really didn't have to pick me up.", Toshiro said in mock annoyance, but Renji just laughed.

"I couldn't help it. You were so cute while you were looking away thinking I was actually going to reject the man that has brought a little happiness to my life and is slowly, but surely helping me to heal.", Renji said with a smile. "Plus you are small and cute. You are almost like my little pocket shinigami lover."

Renji laughed at the glare he was receiving from his lover currently and Toshiro then spoke in the most serious tone he had ever used. "Renji, I love you. I want to continue to make you happy, but I promise you if you ever call me a 'pocket' shinigami again...I will not hesitate to release my bankai and kick your ass.", Toshiro said letting a bit of his reiatsu leak and make it colder to emphasize that he was serious.

Renji laughed even harder. "Alright. Alright. I'm sorry.", he said as Toshiro finally started to calm down.

Toshiro shook his head. "You are so lucky I love you. Now come on let's head to the place now.", he said to him.

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Time: 8 PM

Place: The restaurant in which Toshiro is taking Renji

The windows and even the glass doors were covered with thick opaque curtains that one could not see through. It was perfect to Toshiro to know that Renji would be surprised when they walked in and the other's all yelled 'Surprise'. He was also happy they had all hidden their reiatsu's after he asked them to. He, on the other hand, had not hidden his so that they would know when he was approaching with Renji. Hopefully everyone already had some sort of drink in hand as he knew there were those in the Gotei 13 that did not drink alcohol. Unfortunately, now that they were outside of the restaurant his nerves began to kick in. He muttered a curse under his breath before looking at the still slightly confused man next to him.

The absolutely gorgeous red-haired tattooed captain standing next to him was the whole reason why this thing was set up in the first place. All the shinigami he could think of that he wanted to be there for this were most likely sitting behind or standing behind this door ready to surprise him. No one completely knew why they were here tonight, but they had all accepted his request for their presence there were few within the group that had very accurate assumptions as to what this was. Taking a deep breath, he glanced once more at Renji taking in how he looked. Renji wore a beautiful black male dress kimono with what looked to be icy blue roses on it with the plain black pants to match it. He also had his hair down as per Toshiro's request and that beautiful blue headband that was black with snowflakes and an ice dragon that Byakuya had gotten him.

"You look absolutely amazing tonight.", Toshiro said to Renji. "I think even the Gods of Ichigo's world are jealous because of you tonight."

Renji's cheeks turned a faint pink color. Sure the line was a bit cliched, but coming from Toshiro's lips it was the most beautifully romantic thing someone had ever told him. He turned to look at Toshiro. "Thank you. You look amazing as well.", he said to him. Toshiro had opted to wear a beautiful black dress kimono as well, his decorated with emerald flames and gold both outlining and running through the flames. Renji remembered how his jaw dropped when he first saw Toshiro in the outfit. It brought out his eyes in a way Renji had never seen before.

Toshiro opened the door in front of them and let off a bit more of his reiatsu to show that he was coming in first. He looked in and realized that it was still a rather dark and one glance told him that someone was by the lights. He beckoned Renji inside and the moment the red-head was in the building and the doors shut, the lights flew on with many shouts of surprise. Renji looked shocked blinking a few times. Everyone was here it seemed and he didn't know what to do or how to react as he looked around. He saw captains, vice captains, and their respective dates as well as Ishida, Chad, Orihime, and that man and kids that still ran Urahara's shop in the re-instated captain's absence. Hell, Ichigo's dad was even here and it prompted him to ask what the hell was going on?

"Hi.", he said weakly to everyone before turning to Toshiro, who had a smile on his face after realizing everyone including captain commander and his lover had come to the event. "What's going on Toshiro?", Renji asked confusion evident in his voice.

Toshiro just glanced at someone beyond Renji and they nodded bringing a sturdy and beautifully decorated table covered in flower petals and setting it in front of Renji. Renji looked even more confused as did everyone in the room who had no suspicion as to what the hell was going on right now. Toshiro walked over and jumped up on the table with little effort as he began to address the people a this get together. He really hoped this worked out well. Looking at his confused boyfriend he smiled and placed a small kiss to his lips as the table made them equal height.

"Everyone I would like to thank you all for coming. It really means a lot to me that you all took the time out of your day to come to this. Now I am sure just like the wonderful man standing in front of me that most if not all of you have no clue as to why I wanted all of you to gather here. Today is a very special day, that I have dedicated to Renji here and whats better than spending it with family and friends.", he said and then turned to Renji. Now while he had just spoken to everyone here with the beauty and the grace that showed he had once been a proud captain of the Gotei 13 and was still a proud lieutenant of such an organization, when he looked at Renji he could feel anxiety starting to set in. Renji had opened his mouth to say something when Toshiro continued.

"Renji, I love you more than you can imagine. It did not happen over night as some might say, but it started as a seed and bloomed into the most beautiful flower you could ever imagine. Every night I go to sleep next to you, I can't wait to wake up again and see your face. Every moment I am away from you feels like an eternity until I am in your arms again. Yet now as I stand here before you I realize none of those words I have just spoken come close to how I feel about you. That those words barely scratch the surface of how I truly feel. Renji, I once asked you on a beautiful moonlit night by that river in Seireitei if you would allow me the chance to make you happy. You said you would and I never asked anything of you during our relationship, but I am asking something of you now. Renji, will you marry me?", Toshiro asked on one knee now and showing Renji a beautiful ring that he had picked out.

Renji looked at it in shock as everyone in the room waited for his answer. While everyone was hoping he would say yes, there were two people in the room that were praying silently to whatever god was out there that Renji would decline. Renji looked at the ring and back at Hitsugaya who was waiting ever so patiently for his answer. Renji smiled and gazed at him lovingly. "You know a few months ago if someone asked me 'Renji do you ever think you'll be happy and get married someday?' I would've answered them with a glare followed by a 'no'. Now I-", Renji started to go on but was interrupted.

"Oh just say yes Renji!", Matsumoto yelled at him.

Renji shot her a glare, but turned back to look at the slightly amused expression on Toshiro's face. "I guess I am messing up the whole moment in some way, huh?", he asked his lover.

"I wouldn't have it any other way.", Toshiro said with a smile.

Renji blushed. "Well then. Yes, I would love to marry you Toshiro.", Renji said and Toshiro slipped the ring on to his finger and stood up. "I love you so much.", he said to Toshiro before picking him up and kissing him causing cheers to erupt in the restaurant.

Even with all the loud cheering, no one missed the sound of a glass smashing on the floor. They all stopped and looked towards the origin of the sound. It seemed to have fallen out of the hand of the holder and now lay in many pieces on the floor.

"Oh my!", Rukia exclaimed. "Captain Ukitake are you alright?", she asked noticing how the man was holding himself tightly with his hand covering his mouth.

"I...I'm fine Rukia. Thank you. It is just my illness acting up. I apologize for interrupting such a beautiful moment.", Ukitake said with a weak smile. In truth it wasn't his illness, but no one else needed to know that. "I should probably go home and rest."

"Are you sure Captain Ukitake? I mean you seemed fine all day and -", Rukia was cut off by a loud gasp from Yumichika ad the sound of Shuuhei's body as he fainted.

She turned as did everyone else only to find Shunsui and Urahara kissing like there was no tomorrow. Shunsui had been one of the very very few to know that Jushiro and Toshiro had been in a relationship and he could see how this engagement was affecting his oldest and best friend. So he did the only thing he was sure could grab everyone's attention. He grabbed the closest male next to him, which just happened to be Urahara, and kissed him so that Jushiro could escape this situation which had to be rather awkward for him. Urahara, having easily figured it was a diversion knowing how close Shunsui and Ukitake are, started kissing back to give in more to the illusion. No one noticed as Byakuya and Jushiro slipped out of the restaurant. No one except Toshiro Hitsugaya.

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Time: 9 PM

Place: Jushiro Ukitake's house

Byakuya had picked up Ukitake and flash stepped all the way to the man's house. His speed when doing so would have even impressed Yoruichi. When they reached Jushiro's home, Byakuya placed him down so that the man could open the door. After they were inside, he turned towards the long white haired shinigami.

"Are you alright?", he asked him softly.

"I am just fine Byakuya. To tell you the truth I have been able to do a lot more lately thanks to an experimental medication that Urahara gave me while he perfects the procedure to cure me completely.", Jushiro said to him. "I just couldn't stay there any longer. I just can't believe-"

"I know. I know.", Byakuya said in his calm monotone and yet his emotions were waging war within himself. How could he not have realized how close those two were getting? How could he...

"Byakuya", came the soft sounding voice of Ukitake. Byakuya looked at him feeling a twinge of something that he chose to ignore.

"Yes?", he asked the captain whose eyes he was currently staring into.

"Please...stay with me tonight.", Ukitake asked him softly. It wasn't like Byakuya hadn't been there every night for almost the past week. It was just that Ukitake felt the need to ask him to stay that night.

"Of course. Why would I leave you like this?", Byakuya asked in a way which would have been endearing if he let some of the emotion he was feeling flow into his voice.

Jushiro seemed to get the sentiment though as he moved closer to Byakuya and took his hand in his. Byakuya willingly and silently followed the long white haired shinigami back to his bedroom. One might look upon this scene and ask why the ever-so-proud captain commander was willing following a man to his bedroom after both had been 'slapped' in the face with the realization of how much Renji and Toshiro loved one another. The answer was simple. He wanted to. Tonight he didn't want to think about Renji or Hitsugaya. Tonight, he just wanted to forget. He would think of ways to split them again tomorrow, but for now only two things mattered. The first was him and the second was Jushiro Ukitake.

The room was dark and without turning on the light they made their way over to the bed. Jushiro let go of Byakuya's hand after they both sat down on the bed. His hand found his favorite place in Byakuya's hair moving them closer together before Byakuya stopped the actions. He gently took Ukitake's hand and placed it on the man's lap.

"Not like this.", he said to him in a low whisper. So much unlike his usual monotone. "I want to be able to see everything.", he said and then bent back to turn on the lamp by Ukitake's bed side.

The soft dim light flooded the room as green eyes regarded gray ones. "Are you sure Byakuya? I know I'm not what you-"

Byakuya cut him off by kissing him. "Right now, in this moment, you are exactly who I want.", he said in a whisper looking up slightly into Ukitake's eyes letting his show flickers of unknown emotion.

Ukitake looked at him for what seemed to be hours though it was only seconds. "I feel the same way.", he said and then kissed Byakuya again.

This kiss was soft sweet and passionate. It was not like the kisses given when the two 'practiced' intimacy. No, this simple act of intimacy was very much real. Their lips molded together beautifully as the kiss slowly, but surely escalated to new heights. Byakuya pushed his tongue into Jushiro's mouth slowly taking the time to appreciate the taste of it mapping out the man's mouth in his mind. He did not protest when Jushiro's tongue started pushing back and entered his mouth exploring. This kiss was better than he had ever experienced and he quickly found himself losing himself to it. This was the kind of kiss usually only shared by two lovers who were deeply in love, but they were able to share such sweet intimacy with one another.

Hands encircled Byakuya's waist as Jushiro pulled him closer and Byakuya pulled away just a little. Jushiro looked at him wondering why he pulled away and was about to ask when Byakuya shook his head. He gently removed the kenseikan and placed it on the table allowing some of his hair to fall into his face as he looked up at Jushiro through it. If Jushiro wasn't aroused before, he sure as hell was now. The sight of Byakuya with the aura that commanded obedience but with that look that screamed complete and total submission would be enough to make any man stop in their tracks.

"Gods your beautiful.", Jushiro whispered before moving away a bit of the hair in Byakuya's face and captured his lips in a searingly passionate kiss and pushing him back gently on to the bed.

Byakuya wrapped his arms around Jushiro's neck deepening the kiss even more than one would have thought possible. Soft moans escaped both men as Ukitake slowly began removing Byakuya's clothes kissing bits of exposed skin as soon as they were revealed to him. He removed the top of Byakuya's uniform tossing it unceremoniously on to the floor, but the captain commander could care less about wrinkled clothes at the moment. The long white haired shinigami's mouth licked and sucked on one of the hardened peaks of flesh on Byakuya's chest while his hands hooked into Byakuya's pants and removed them and the black haired shinigami's underwear in one fluid motion. Byakuya shivered lightly but it wasn't because of the cold air that hit his now freed erection. It was because of the delicious feeling of Jushiro's hands ghosting over it teasing the tip lightly.

Jushiro stopped his ministrations and then stood up slowly taking off his clothing knowing that Byakuya was watching his every move. Most men and women in Seireitei would probably give their left arm to have either one of them in bed and yet here they were in bed with one another. Byakuya's eyes roamed over Ukitake's chest as he removed the top to his outfit. Their eyes connected a moment before Jushiro removed his pants and underwear all at once. Byakuya gasped at the sight of beauty that now stood before him in all its full glory with his sexy long white hair covering bits of his skin.

"And you say I'm beautiful...", Byakuya said as he looked at him.

"You are.", Jushiro said before moving back on to the bed and kissing Byakuya on the lips. Their naked bodies rubbing sensually against one another with soft gasps and moans whenever one of their erections brushed against the leg or erection of the other. Jushiro moved from the sinfully addictive lips of Byakuya only to use his mouth to lick and kiss a path down to the captain commander's proudly standing manhood. He let his breath flow over it licking the tip so softly and so quickly that Byakuya was sure he imagined it until he felt the hot warmth of Ukitake's mouth swallowing his length ever so slowly. Byakuya moaned a bit louder than he had been moaning before. His resisted the urge to thrust his hips up and force that mouth to take more of him in faster.

Jushiro slid his hands up Byakuya's legs lightly scratching as he did so, which caused Byakuya to let out a loud moan and shiver with pleasure at the same time. Jushiro repeated the action several times as he started sucking a little harder and faster on Byakuya. The moans the commander was making were enough to drive a sane man to insanity. His hand snaked up Byakuya's torso stopping to tease the hardened peaks yet again bringing a nice loud moan of pleasure from him. He placed three of his long fingers against Byakuya's lips. Even though for Byakuya himself this was the first time with a man, he knew the basics of what to do and what his body was telling him to do.

He took the fingers into his mouth sucking on them, separating them in his mouth, and licking them. Jushiro let out a long low moan against Byakuya's member causing Byakuya to moan around Jushiro's fingers. The chain reaction of it causing Jushiro to remove his fingers from Byakuya's mouth. Byakuya subconsciously spread his legs a little wider and Jushiro pushed the first finger into Byakuya. Byakuya had to bite his lip to keep from voicing his discomfort, which quickly disappeared when he looked down and saw green eyes staring directly into his. The sight was so breath-taking that he didn't even notice when the second finger was inserted into him. He just felt the fingers moving in and out of him until they brushed across something that made him arch up off the bed. It was within this momentary distraction that Jushiro added the third finger his mouth still sucking Byakuya's member as his other hand held the younger shinigami down on the bed. He continued to brush his fingers against Byakuya's prostate making Byakuya try to cover his mouth to try and keep down the loudness of his moaning.

Jushiro stopped what he was doing with his mouth, but not what he was doing with his fingers. He took away Byakuya's hand from his mouth. "You want to see me, I want to hear you.", Jushiro whispered causing Byakuya to blush lightly and then moan in appreciation when the man's fingers once again brushed against his prostate.

Ukitake pulled his fingers out not wanting Byakuya to finish before he was inside him. Most likely sometime in the next couple of days, he would feel a bit depressed about the fact that Byakuya was willing to give himself to him when Toshiro hadn't wanted to, but not now. Right now he was going to enjoy this precious gift that was being given to him. He looked into Byakuya's half opened eyes filled with lust and bits of hair that had stuck to the sides of his face. The captain commander was truly a work of art and he continued to admire him as he lined himself up with Byakuya's entrance. He leaned over capturing Byakuya's lips and slowly pushing inside. A muffled cry of pain slipped through Byakuya's lips as he continued to kiss Ukitake.

Once he was fully inside, he stopped to watch Byakuya's face panting heavily. What on earth had he done to deserve something like this not long after feeling as though his heart was going to shatter into pieces? What was this feeling he had when looking down at the lovely slightly sweaty face of the captain commander? He felt Byakuya shift his hips and then look deep into his eyes. Taking that as his cue, he began to slowly moving in and out of him watching the man beneath me fully slide his eyes closed and moan softly. Jushiro bent down kissing and licking Byakuya's neck before trailing kisses up to his mouth. Their lips touched and Jushiro immediately plunged his tongue into Byakuya's mouth loving the loud, but muffled moan that came from it. He switched the angle that he moved and hit Byakuya's prostate dead on. Their lips broke apart to allow a small cry from Byakuya's lips.

He was getting close, but he didn't want this to end. He could tell that his partner didn't want this to end, but knew that it must. He slowly moved his hands between their hot sweaty bodies to grasp Byakuya's member stroking in time with his hits to the younger shinigami's prostate. He knew Byakuya was close and so was he. He felt Byakuya tense up knowing he was about to come.

"Look at me Byakuya.", he said in a half whisper half moan. Byakuya kept his eyes closed anyway. He was so close he could just about taste it. "Bya...Byakuya, I am ordering you to look at me.", Jushiro said partially wondering how Byakuya would respond and knowing the man was too far gone to actually care or so he thought.

Byakuya's eyes flew open staring at Ukitake. "Did you just-", he was cut off by a particularly hard pleasurable thrust to his prostate.

"And what if I did?", Ukitake as he could feel himself ready to explode.

Byakuya looked right into his eyes and pulled him into a quick kiss. "Nothing. Only because its you...", he whispered and another hard thrust had his lower half arched off the bed and eyes staring deep into Ukitake's as he came covering both their stomachs in the whitish liquid.

With the increase in Byakuya's tightness, Jushiro found himself climaxing soon after him filling Byakuya with his essence. He waited until the last shudders of their climaxes receded and then gently pulled himself from Byakuya. He wiped them off with a spare cloth he had next to his bedside in case he ever started to cough and then tossed it on the floor. He would get it in the morning, right now all he wanted was to hold Byakuya close to him for some reason he had not yet discovered though it may just be an after effect of their lovemaking. He pulled Byakuya close liking the fact that he wasn't resisting. They laid together in silence for a little while before Byakuya spoke up.

"If you ever tell anyone that I listened to an order from you in the bedroom or that I would probably do it again, I will personally shred you to pieces with senbonzakura until there was nothing left.", Byakuya said to him in as close as he could get to his usual monotone while still breathing heavily.

Ukitake chuckled a little bit. "You'd listen to another order in the bedroom from me again, Byakuya? How interesting indeed."

"That's not the point.", Byakuya said to him, but honestly he was too tired and satisfied to really put up a good argument right now.

"I know.", Ukitake said moving and placing a light kiss on Byakuya's lips. "Don't worry. I wouldn't want to share that piece of information with anyone. It would ruin how truly special that was and how truly amazing you are."

Byakuya didn't know what to say to that even as he blushed. So he just curled up against Ukitake and went to sleep with the older shinigami following suit soon after.

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Well there you have it the mystery man revealed...and with a lemon i rather enjoy though its obviously not the best. However imagining hot UkiBya lemons i think makes up for that. :)