SOULS BOUND ACROSS TIME:KISUKE URAHARA LOVE STORY

I know its been a while but here you go :-)

 

Chapter 10- Celebrate Past and Future

6 months pass…

 

Sayas POV:

We arrived at the Shihoin Mansion as guests for one of Yourichi's infamous Souls Society parties designed to create a sense of normalcy. The estate was magnificent sitting on a cliff that over looked a large body of water that seemed to go on forever. Koga and I got out of the carriage that Yourichi had sent for us and walked up the entry way adorned with carved jade columns that opened into a grand hall that was swarming with shinigami, both regular and captain class all dressed in clothing from the world of the living; a request of our hostess.  I felt like an aristocrat standing there in a long electric blue dress that tied at my right shoulder, holding me in tight through my hips then flowing down to the floor. 

“I told you that we would be that last ones here” Koga said as he placed his had gingerly on the small of my back.

 

“You know that I like to make an entrance” I said with a playful smile then kissed his cheek.

 

We stood at the top of the stair case as I scoped the room for our friends. A pair of arms wrapped around me from behind me causing me to jump a little as I assessed the spirit energy from the familiar embrace. I turned around quickly to see Yourichi with Kisuke at her side. She looked absolutely beautiful dressed in a long black gown with a slit up the side that looked to go all the way to her hip and showed off all of her curves.

 

“You have outdone yourself as always Yourichi. This is amazing!” I said with excitement behind my voice.

 

"I'm just glad that both of you could attend” she said genuinely happy to see us both.

 

“Late as always, I see!” Kisuke chimed in while leaning in to kissing my cheek, sending a rush of dormant feelings rushing to the surface. I smiled as Kogas hand tightened within mine. Kisuke was dressed in a slim black suit with a green shirt and whit tie.  “You look amazing in that dress, blue suits you well!” He added with a smirk, trying to get the best of Koga.

 

I smiled fully knowing what he was trying to do, “Thank you” I said as Koga grabbed my hand and started to guide me to the group friends that he had identified from our perch.

 

“Come on Saya, the royals need to greet their guest” he smugly said tugging me along behind him.

 

Kisuke eyes glared at Koga and then turned his attention back to me as I was being whisked away, “I will see you in a little while.” he shouted out over the music and voices that filled the room.

 

My eyes bright I smiled holding back laughter then turned back to Koga who was now pulling at my arm more forcefully as we made our way through the crowd. 

 

“I really hate these over done events.” Koga said with a snicker as he glanced around the room.

 

He was also of noble blood and most likely very used to these type of lavish events. Just another party to him, but to me, it was like a fairytale. A time to shine in the clothes of my youth, something that I had feared I would never be able to do upon my transition into the Soul Society and especially as an adult.

 

“I think its fun, so please try to enjoy yourself!” looking at him out of the corner of my eye I ordered at him in a teasing manner.

 

Pleased with my playfulness he pulled me into him, gently brushing his lips to mine. "I do love you" he whispered to me then leaned in for a kiss finally biting my lip as he pulled away broken by Kai and Jishos  voices calling out to us.

 

As the came closer he added, "He is right you know!" brushing back my bangs. I looked back at him confused, "You do look beautiful tonight" he said pecking my lips once more before turning to great our new companions.

 

The night passed quickly as we enjoyed ourselves for one last time before the before the new chapter in our lives began. As the night got later, we retired down a long hallway through two open glass doors. As we walked closer to the opening I could hear the crashing of waves against the cliffs in the distance. We walked out the doors the sound of string instruments filled the night air as I looked around to see a large courtyard with white chase lounges and large pillows strategically placed for the comfort of all of the guests. There were with bright purple and orange flowers all over most likely blooming due to the steam from the hot spring that was further toward the back of the courtyard. 

“Huh” Koga scoffed, “So pretentious. My family would have never tried this hard.”

 

Annoyed with the comment I walked ahead of him grabbing a glass of wine from a servant “I don’t know, I could get used to this” I said playfully with a smirk and raised brow.

 

"Oh really, you know that I could make that happen for you.” He said eagerly as he grabbed a glass for himself and moved behind me placing his hand on my stomach.

 

Somewhat expecting that answer as soon as my statement finished my stomach churned with the thoughts of that day on his families grounds. Shaking the images from my mind I took in his handsome ruggedness; dressed in a slim grey suit with a merlot colored shirt that was unbuttoned at the top and a black tie that was slightly undone.

 

“We have already had that discussion Koga” I said looking back at him to see the handsome, tall, thin young man with dark brown hair and piercing light blue eyes almost snake like in his demeanor. His eyes peered back at me as we stood there neither backing down from our comments.

 

Yourichi and Kisuke walked out with the rest of the guests as we made our way to the rest of our friends that were already perched up on a chase lounge. We listened to the music and enjoyed conversations around the divisions and our work for it seemed like hours as we drank more and more. Before we knew it had become late and the wind was picking up as if the skys were warning the people of the hour. Many people started to leave allowing Yourichi to come over; plopping down next to us.

 

Her cheeks rosy from the sake consumed she wrapped her arms around Koga and I, "You know that you all are set to stay the night. Your rooms are ready when you are just walk in the glass doors and look for your name on the room door.” she said looking back and fourth at us.

 

“Yourichi!” an older woman called out.

 

Her smile faded as she stood up at attention, “It looks like I have to say goodbye to more people” she sighed “I hate these things!” then retreated to thank the leaving guests.

 

Grinning from her comment Koga nudged me, “See, she doesn’t like them either!” he said with a childlike spirit kissing my temple; happy to prove himself right.

 

I looked at him and chuckled, “Smartass!” I said as I stood up. Wanting to investigate the grounds more I excused myself then proceeded to walk toward the back of the courtyard; following the sent of the salt water breezing through the air.

 

Paper lanterns lit my way as I cautiously made my way back to the edge of the cliff so that I could get some solitude form the drab conversation that my drunken friends we engaged in. I stood on the edge looking over the hip high rock wall, letting the breeze of the cool air on my face and running through my hair; glancing down to see the water crashing on the rocks below. I closed my eyes and took in a deep breath taking it all in and reflecting on the all that had happened in the years past and thinking about what was still to come. Thoughts of Kisuke and me automatically popped in my head as I remembered the amazing nights that we spent together, the tears that we caused each other, the anger, the laughter  and the long road that we took to get back to being happy again. Breaking me from the spell that the surroundings had over me, I felt a hand caress the bare part of my back, gingerly moving up my shoulder. Startled I jumped slightly, snapping out of the storyline that was playing in my head and turning to see who saw me come out this direction. I smiled as Kisuke moved next to me and handed me a glass of wine.

 

“It looked like you could use one of these” he said with a low chuckle as he glanced at me from the corner of his eye.

 

I took another big breath this time the sent of vanilla and sandalwood came upon the wind. A sent that I had come to love reminding me of waking in Kisukes arms. “Thanks” I replied softly. My heart fluttered with the caress of his fingers to mine as I took the glass from his hand.

 

Placing his cold hand back on my back again, “Are you ok?” he asked back.

 

I shivered at the chill of his touch then began to take off my shoes to sit on the rock wall, swinging my legs around to face the water. He copied my actions to do the same.

 

“Yeah... I am” I said back convincingly as I looked into his bright grey eyes and nervously bit at my lip.

 

The clouds started to roll in over us and the smell of rain quickly came as lightening peaked through the clouds in the distance.

 

Shaking his head he spoke out breaking the silence between us again, “After all of these years, and as many times I have sat with you in the rain, you have never told me why you are obsessed with it?”

 

I smiled and said, “I love the calm before the storm, the quite calm before the ciaos.” slowly closing my eyes again I felt the wind whip through my hair.

 

“Why doesn’t that surprise me!” he whispered with a sweetness that set my soul a blaze.

 

“Controlled chaos...It’s a power that I want” I said darting my eyes between him and the lightening that lit the clouds.

 

Kisuke, quite for a minute, placed his hand once again on my back rubbing my bare skin, “I’m proud of you, you know. There was a time that I thought that you just might not make it into the academy and you would take me down with you." we both laughed out, "You have really pushed yourself to become an impressive lieutenant.”

 

Knowing that he meant it in the most sincere way I teased him, “Thanks?” I questioned the comment.

 

“No seriously, we have come a long way together." nudging my shoulder with his, "I'm still in need of a partner to help push me to captain class.. Maybe we can share squad techniques besides; you really need to get better at your kido!”

 

Laughing heartily I placed my glass to his as they released a chime, “Thank you Kisuke… for everything… good and bad!”

 

He put his arm around me and kissed my forehead, “This is just the beginning to so much more" he paused looking back as the music stopped, "Let’s get back” He said as he turned around sliding off the stony wall and grabbed my hand to help me off; supporting me as I put my shoes back on.

 

What was that supposed to mean… just the beginning to so much more I thought to myself but quickly dismissed it as we walked down the stone path.  Reaching for my hand he interlocked our fingers as we quietly walked back to the rest of the group, causing my heart to race and me to blush slightly. I couldn't help but wonder what he was feeling at that very moment. Upon closing in on the people still left from the party; he pulled up my hand to kiss it before anyone could see then released it walking in front of me to grab a seat next to Yourichi. Stopping next to Koga, he stood up wrapping his hands around my waist and pressed his lips to mine as if to make a statement to the group.

 

Sweeping my wind blown hair back from my face he whispered in my ear, “It’s getting late, let’s go to the room."

 

“Yeah, that's fine” I said back in a soft whisper.

 

My heart began to hurt as it called out wanting to stay with Kisuke. Why did I have to think about those nights? He had my heart on a string… always under my skin.  I had been fine before this night but all I could think of was Kisuke and now I was being led back to a room to sleep with someone some one that I didn’t even love.

 

Once in our room he pulled me in tightly to him, kissing me softly "I will be right back" he said with a wicked smile.

I nodded watching him until he closed the door behind him. I walked over to grab my bag that the servant had brought in then preceded to the bathroom to change. My body trembled as I took off my dress replacing it on a short light green satin night gown with black lace along the hymn. I couldn’t get Kisuke’s face out of my mind nor the spell that he had me under.

 

“Where are you?” Koga yelled out playfully.

 

My heart sunk as I tried to push the thoughts of Kisuke out of my head. I’m with Koga! I said to myself Koga! reassuring myself that I was doing the right thing as I looked at myself in the mirror.

 

"I..I'll be right there" I said back with a slight stutter through the cracked bathroom door.

 

Once again I looked at myself in the mirror straightened out my hair then slipped on my white satin robe. Opening the door I commanded his devoted attention with a seductive smirk,  Koga stood shirtless with two glasses of wine in his hand. He smiled releasing a low passionate groan as I walked over to him. I took both of the glasses from his hands placing them down onto the side table. Pressing my body to his I let my thumbs hook into the sides of his pants as I began to kiss him passionately. I desperately wanted Koga’s touch to take away the thoughts of Kisuke; the promise and the threat. He slid his hands down the sides of my arms as my robe fell to the floor. Pulling away to look at me and give his usual devilish smile he picked me up, cradling me as he walked me over to the bed. Kissing me, he laid me down and ran his hand down my breasts continuing along my side and finally resting it on the small of my back. My thoughts started to turn back to Koga as he started to kiss my neck and massage my right breast. He slowly trailed his kisses over my gown down my body then slowly slid off my panties. I sat up and kissed him again as I ran my hands down his back and pushed his pants to the floor.  His body pressed between my trembling thighs, I began to get tired of being teased as his fingers caressed me. Under the cover of a soft moan I pulled him onto the bed; pushing him to his back I crawled on top of him. Now sitting on his stomach with a smirk I leaned down kissing his neck, gaining the moan that I wanted.

 

His hand cupped my face, guiding it to look at him, “I have never wanted you so bad” he said as he brushed my hair out of my face love in his eyes.

 

"Then take me” I whispered as I leaned down to kiss him once more.

 

With a groan he grabbed my waist and spun me right onto my back and I let out a loud squeal and laughed. He then centered himself over me, began to kiss my neck and thrust himself inside of me. I let out a loud moan as he moved his kisses back to my lips and began to bite on my bottom lip. As he continued move in and out I let out a few more low moans to let him know that he had me at my breaking point. I ran my nails down his back and kissed and nipped at his neck, letting out a loud moan that made me smile as I thought about his body, his love and such selfish prayers that I couldn't get enough of.  His hands found their way across my chest to slid off the strap to my night gown exposing my left breast. As he began to kiss my breast and suck my nipple and I instantly thought of Kisuke. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath in and wrapped my legs tightly around Koga's waist. Grabbing him and pulling him into me, as not to show any expression of alarm, I gently bit into his shoulder; still haunted by the of Kisuke out of my head. I closed my eyes tighter as I felt the rush of pure ecstasy and began to yell out Kisuke's name but stopped myself just in time to change it to Koga’s. Catching my breath I dug my face into his chest as his passionate efforts came to an end.  He collapsed onto me, gently kissing my cheek before rolling over to pull the sheets up to cover us both. He then pulled me in to lay on his chest, tucking me into his side. My body shuttered at the entire outcome wanting to cry but I held it in. What the hell is the matter with me, I thought to myself.

 

“Are you ok?” he asked kissing my forehead and tightening his grip.

 

"Yeah, I’m perfect” I answered back kissing his chest; hating myself for my weak mind.

 

I laid there with him until I was certain that he was completely asleep then got up. I searched the ground  for my panties, sliding them on I grabbed my robe and proceeded down the hall way to the side kitchen area to grab some water. I snagged two glasses of water and began to walk back down the hall way to my room. My attention was detoured as I glanced over at a door that was cracked open. The sounds of soft moans came dancing out from within. As I moved closer I could see the shadows of two bodies making love dancing on the wall, reflected from the firelight.

 

A voice called out “Yes, that’s it Kisuke!”

 

My heart immediately exploded in my chest; leaving my legs weak I felt sick to my stomach. It was Yourichi… with Kisuke. Unable to breath I gulped, closed my eyes and ran back to my room shutting the door slowly as to not wake up Koga. Leaning my back to the now closed door I slid down to the floor, placed two glasses beside me as I held back tears. I so desperately wanted for him to want me! I wanted to make love to him again and I hated myself for it. I looked at the man laying in my bed that I just finished making love to and began to pant for air attempting to hold back the inevitable sea  tears pushing fourth.  Pulling my knees in and rested my head on them and began to silently weep. Why did I feel this way? I can’t be angry, I just got done doing the same thing to Koga, I reasoned with myself. I sat there for what felt like forever trying to just get what I saw out of my mind.

 

 A crash of thunder rumbled the windows and I began to feel like I had to just get out and get some fresh air. I walked over to grab the glasses of wine that Koga had originally pored then walked out of the room, closing the door slowly trying not to wake him. I desperately needed to be alone at that moment, I thought as the door shut. I walked slowly down the hall and towards the glass doors, opened one and walked outside stopping to feel the cool breeze again against my face. Goosebumps covered my body as I proceeding down the steps to the white chase that was siting under the enclave, sheltered from the actual rain. I placed the glasses of wine on the small table that was positioned to the side of the chair then looked out at the dark clouds in the sky to see the lightening dancing in the sky like fireworks. Tears  began to fall down my tired face as I couldn’t hold it in anymore. Startled at the sound of the door opening behind me I stood up, only to see Kisuke standing in the doorway; shirtless with a look of worry on his face.

“What are you doing out here?” he asked with genuine concern on his face, “Are you alright?” he continued as he began to scratch the back of his neck and walking towards me. I nodded quickly wiping the tears from my face. “Green looks good on you” he said with a smile as he starred at my nightgown.

 

Slightly embarrassed by the comment, I quickly took my robe and covered myself, “Thanks!” I said back with a light chuckle.

 

I sat back down at the front of the chase and grabbed the glass of wine and proceeded to take a large gulp hoping that it would take away the pain that still ravaged my being.

 

Not leaving without an answer he walked over and fell to the back part of the chair releasing a large sigh, “Really, what are you doing out here?” sitting up and demanded again.

 

“I just needed to get some air” I sadly said back, unable to hold back the shakiness in my voice.

 

A gust of wind came whirling through pushing the rain in closer. Not wanting to get wet I slid back further on the chair and gave a slight shiver. Always there to take care of me, Kisuke grabbed the blanket that was shoved behind him, pulled it around himself then slid behind and wrapping his arms around me. Uncertain of how to react to his chivalrous action I took another sip of wine and began to put it back on the table. Neither of us wanting to turn away from the wonderful perfection that came with the embrace, he held me tight for what seemed like forever until I finally fully gave in and sunk back into his chest.  Our bodies breathed in unison as if they were one as he then pulled my hair off of my shoulder and rested his head on the crook of my neck.

 

“Seriously, are you going to tell me what is wrong!?” he whispered into my ear in a low voice that had me wanting to melt on the floor until I became nothing more than a puddle at his feet.

 

“I’m fine!” I ordered back with a nod trying to end conversation.

 

His grip now tighter around my waist, he took in a deep breath “Saya...I still” he stopped.

 

Sitting there my back pinned against his body I could feel the intensity of his heartbeat becoming more rapid.

 

I knew that he wanted to tell me that he still loved me “Yeah, I know. Me too!” I whispered back as he softly kissed my shoulder.

 

Not wanting to stop him, I rested my head back into him, placing my left hand in his hair as he continued to caress my neck with his lips. Completely giving into his seduction I took hold of his thigh with my right hand as I felt his right hand move from my hip, across my stomach then between my breasts as he pulled at the top of my nightgown. I let out a small moan and turned my head to face him as he spared no time to moving his lips to mine. So much love released with such a simple action I turned to face him as he pulled me into his body once more his kiss deepened and I lost all ability to stop myself. I can’t do this I thought to myself! I can’t go through this again! We pulled away for a breath; both lost in the want screaming from each others eyes.

 

As he leaned into kiss me again I put my hand to his chest “We can’t do this!” I said with turmoil written on my face.

 

His eyes once bright now looked at me with a dark calmness. Trying to catch his breath he fell back into the chair putting his hands on his face in frustration of our constant struggle. I looked away as tears yet again streamed down my face and I began to get up. Everything I wanted was mine for the taking and I couldn’t do it! What the Hell is wrong with me, I questioned myself as I look down upon the only man that I truly loved.

 

“Saya” he began to whisper out, reaching for me to stay by his side.

 

My lips trembled as I turned to look at him. Maybe it was foolish or childish, but I couldn't help asking, "Are you serious?" Why me? Why now?”

 

“I don’t know how to answer that, Saya. All I can say is that it’s always been about you!” he said as he sat back up looking at me with a passion that I had whished for so often.

 

Looking back into those beautiful grey eyes, I continued with confusion and hurt in my voice “We decided a while ago that this just wasn't going to work! That this would just mess things up!"

 

Boiling with frustration he stood up and quickly moved over to me reaching for my waist, “No, you decided that! You never even gave me the chance to let you know what I wanted, how you made me feel with that decision! You always act like nothing ever happened and went on like you never felt a thing, but I know now that that's not true is it Saya!?! He stopped to wipe the tears from my eyes then continued, "Look at me and tell me that you don't feel the same as me when I touch you, hold you , when I kiss you!"

 

I pulled out of his grasp and backed away from him "None of that matters, we both have someone that care for us laying in a bed without us. People that we care for!" I paused as he continued,

 

“You are just making excuses now! If you wanted to be with Koga then why didn’t you say yes to his proposal? Why aren’t you with him now instead of out here with me? He grabbed my hand and pulled me back into him. "Tell me that you don't want to kiss me right now." he assertively whispered.

 

I did, with all of my heart! Every inch of my body ached for him but I just couldn't do it. I hugged him digging my face into his chest "I wouldn't want to be on the other end of all of this. I don't want to be the one that gets betrayed right in front of my face…do you?"

 

I pulled back looking at him. I felt his grip tighten around me as thunder shook the ground under our feet. I heard him sigh frustrated at the fact that I was right “No" he said back then placed his chin on top of my head "Are we going to be ok?"

 

I took a deep breath, holding him tighter and closing my eyes "I don't know, but I hope so" I said back releasing my grip and turning back to my room. I didn't want to leave, I didn't want to let him go, but I knew that I didn't trust myself with him. I walked back toward my door leaving him outside. I opened the door carefully checking that Koga was still asleep and crawled back into bed with him. 

 

Kisukes POV :

 

My blood boiled as I saw her walk in on the arm of that snake. He had such an arrogance about him that made me hate him more. Her beautiful curves tucked into that dress had me at my end. Blue was always her color, radiating out her beauty with a vibrant touch that reminded me of her clam yet chaotic personality that I had come to crave… no love over all of our time together. She was as unstable as the ocean water and there was something so perfect in that imperfection that drew me to her every time.

His hands on her at all times, I watched him stake his claim to her without one word from across the room. His prize had been won and Koga feared the friendship that he couldn’t control between us as we continued to find one another, intimately again and again. I guess that is why I had become ok with our separation, keeping the faith that we would once again be back in each others arms. Never understanding the love that we, two powerful soul reapers held for each other. A man of science, I had even given up on understanding the depth of our sorted devotion for each other  and to what lengths it would go. Pushing away the feeling that one day it was destined to be the end of one of us.

 

I watched her as she walked out to the cliffs as if to summon me like a siren in the sea. Her movements flowed like the wind down a path as I followed from a far, desperate to spend some time alone, just her and I. As we sat on the rock wall and reminisced about days past, I knew that our time was limited, soaking in every word, every laugh and every look that she gave to memory to keep me content for the time being. Like a drug to my soul, I held in the emotions that clawed at my heart as we walked back I had to be strong for us I thought as I kissed her hand, releasing it to let her know that we would be ok. Together we will survive, even if it was to be in secret.

 

I found myself defeated as her eyes locked to mine, walking beside Koga, making their way back to the room. Looking down, I saw my knuckles turn white as visions played in my head of what he would do to her that night, how he would touch her, kiss her and make love to her.   Almost in retaliation, partly to make myself feel better about where we all were, I turned my frustration to lust as I took Yourichi that night… thinking only of Saya as her nails dug into my skin and she winced in pleasure.

 

The sound of the wind whistling down the hall had my curiosity on edge and me on my feet. Somehow knowing who I would find at the end of the trail, the short quest had my heart skipping with anticipation. She stood there, her scarlet hair whipping in the wind as if she was calling on the weather to wash away the pain that we were feeling. Throughout all of the years, she almost seemed to have a unspoken power, a spell if you will, over the rain. It always came roaring through the air at her most desperate hours. Like the collapse of her dreams, her world, was felt by the skies as they cried for her.

 

As with anytime that I was close to her, I couldn't help but to want to comfort her in her time of need, to hold her close and reassure he that everything would be ok. The soft sweetness of her skin was too much to bare she allowed my hands to once more trace the seductive curves of her luscious figure. I loved her and that was all that would run through my mind as my lips found hers and I took hold of the one woman that could have me begging before her feet for one last taste of her pure love for me. Her touch set my soul a blaze of thunderous happiness with each look and touch; only to be destroyed by her ability to stop our outburst of unadulterated emotions with a logic that couldn't be opposed. I hated to let her walk away in those moments. I wanted to stay and fight for what I wanted, what we wanted but I had to stay the course and it would come with time… when it was right.