Silent Tears

I do not own Bleach.

Apologies for any OOCness.

Random fan: Where the hell have you been?
Me: Sorry. Haven't been feeling well really and just not all here.
Random fan: But I want to know what happens next!
Me: Well you have gotten your wish.
Random fan: Yay! So what's going on now?
Me: All I will tell you is that the fic isn't near over yet, and things will start turning around a bit for the moment *grins to make Gin proud*
Phoenix Ninja: *randomly pops in* Told you! That's it I am calling you Gin from now on!
Me: *hits phoenix ninja on top of the head anime style (think eiri hitting shuichi from Gravitation) and then grins* now read the fic and I hope you all enjoy. :) Oh yeah minor TS.

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Time: 1 PM

Place: The shopping district of Seireitei

When: Saturday (2 weeks)

Byakuya and Renji were currently walking down the street to a park so that they may sit and eat their lunch. The two had become something like friends in the past couple of weeks and had been shopping since 10 AM this morning still not finding something perfect for Renji to wear, though they did find a slightly secluded spot for them to have lunch. Thinking back on it, Byakuya wasn't sure if they ever had lunch together save for a few times that Renji brought him tea and it was raining outside. Sitting back against a tree, Byakuya took a bite out of his food surprised at how delicious the food tasted. He usually only ate what his chef prepared for him or what was made at Ukitake's house as of late. Renji, on the other hand, was just munching away seemingly lost in his own thoughts.

"Is something wrong Renji?", Byakuya asked him before sipping his drink.

"Oh nothing. Just thinking about different things is all.", Renji answered still seeming far away.

"Are you sure?", Byakuya asked him. "If its relationship problems feel free to talk with me about it. After all I am in a relationship with another male as well. I may be of some assistance.", he said wondering exactly how well his and Ukitake's plan was working.

Renji looked at him. Maybe this was a bad idea. Here he was with the man he had once sworn to surpass, the man he had loved and risked his life for in the war against Aizen, the one who had never acknowledged him and treated him like trash, the one now helping him with his wedding to Toshiro Hitsugaya, and the same one who had been on his mind more often than not after learning his relationship with the 13th division's captain. Byakuya was looking at him with those same cold steel gray eyes mixed with a hint of concern in them. The elder shinigami's lips were slightly part, the light wind blew the hair on his face back a little even with the kenseikan in place, and he seemed to actually be waiting for Renji to answer sincerely wanting to help in anyway. He was, in Renji's mind, the picture of perfection. Renji found himself moving closer to the captain commander. He didn't take in that the commander was a little surprised, he didn't take in the fact that he was marrying someone else. It pissed him off, that he served Byakuya all those years, had loved him all those years, and everything...everything he wanted was being given to others. To stay by Byakuya's side was taken away four years ago by his current fiance. To make Byakuya open up, be playful, affectionate, to dominate him all taken by Jushiro Ukitake. Just once he wanted to be the one to make him react even slightly, even if Byakuya would say the dreaded words 'Scatter Senbonzakura' directly after.

That was what pushed him to do what he was about to do. These thoughts had been building on one another since that lunch a bit more than two weeks ago. He loved Toshiro. There was no doubt in anyone's mind about that. The former captain of the tenth division had definitely helped Renji in many ways to slowly but surely overcome the worthlessness he felt. His engagement ring was shining beautifully on his finger and he did show it off quite a bit as well. However what he was thinking about had nothing to do with his turquiose eyed lover, and more to do with attractive steel grey eyed captain commander who he was steadily moving closer to.

Byakuya watched as Renji moved closer still with the slight concern in his eyes. On the inside though he had a smug smirk on his face. If Renji was going to do what he knew Renji was going to do then his and Ukitake's plan was working beautifully. With that small victory in mind, Byakuya realized that he still needed to keep up appearances least either Hitsugaya or Renji figure them out. Slowly, he raised his hands up and tried gently to push Renji away from him.

"Renji, what are you doing? What about Toshiro?", Byakuya asked allowing it to sound as if he didn't really want it and was acting like a good friend. After all getting the two shinigami's trust by acting as friends was part of the plan.

Unfortunately Renji was so lost in his thoughts about Byakuya that when the latter spoke all he heard was 'shiro'. It didn't register that he was talking about Tohsiro and figured Byakuya was just talking about Jushiro. He didn't care to hear about Byakuya's lover at this moment. All he wanted was what he was about to do right now. Moving the hands that were trying to stop him, he placed his hands on either side of Byakuya's face and kissed him.

Byakuya froze as if shocked that Renji would do such a thing even if he was jumping for joy on the inside. Not to mention it wasn't the quick type of chaste kiss, he thought the engaged man would give him. Renji's lips were pressed tightly against his and Byakuya had to admit that this was actually really nice. Still appearances were to be considered after all. Byakuya pulled his head away looking at Renji with lots of confusion and uncertainty. Renji saw this expression and realized how much more he wanted to see of it, of Byakuya's emotions, right now. So when the elder shinigami opened his mouth to say something Renji reclaimed it. Byakuya's eyes widened when he felt his former lieutenant's tongue push its way past his slightly parted lips. He felt the lips of the red head press more firmly against his own in an almost bruising kiss as Renji seemed to be exploring his mouth and mapping out every part of it.

The kiss lasted for a good five minutes before Renji finally pulled away. He looked over at Byakuya who seemed to be surprised, flushed, and panting all at once. Those were nice reactions and Renji took some pride in the knowledge that he was the one to cause them. Finally, he did something that his superior would notice and remember. The pride he felt lasted all of three minutes when Byakuya spoke again.

"That was...unexpected.", Byakuya said looking at Renji with the same expression as he tried to calm them down. "Though I must admit it was kind of nice, still what about Toshiro, Renji? Don't you love him and if you do then why did you kiss me? I am with someone as well after all."

Renji looked at Byakuya thinking over the words the elder just said before responding. "I don't know. I just wanted to...needed to... It doesn't matter.", he said looking away. How was he going to explain to Tohsiro that he had kissed Byakuya? He could not tell him, but after everything Toshiro has done for him that would be completely disrespectful. Sighing, he looked over at Byakuya. "I think I need to go home and lay down. I am sorry for disrespecting your relationship with Ukitake-taicho as such."

Byakuya nodded in acceptance of the apology with finally schooled features. "Very well. It was most likely the heat getting to you or something of the sort. Don't forget about tea at Ukitake's tomorrow, until then rest well Renji."

Renji bowed his head slightly and then left flash stepping home as fast as he could. Byakuya sat there for a few minutes after Renji had disappeared with his hand touching his lips and a small smile threatening his nomally stoic features. That was definitely one hell of a kiss.

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Time: 4 PM

Place: Renji's apartment

If it wasn't for the fact that Toshiro was in the other room napping Renji would have screamed in frustration the moment he walked into the place. However he knew Toshiro was home resting because he had run into Ukitake on the way here. Normally that would have sent up red flags to anyone of how someone knows their lover is napping, but Renji trusted Toshiro more than Toshiro could obviously trust him after today. He couldn't stay here at this moment, he needed to talk to someone about what just happened and hope to get some advice.

He loved Toshiro so much and to betray the person that has done so much for him was slowly re-breaking Renji's mind. He could lie about it and not tell Toshiro, but he would know. He would know that he kissed Byakuya while with Toshiro. How could he face him now? How could he tell Toshiro that it happened? That he and Byakuya kissed again and that it was all his doing. Would Toshiro forgive him if he told him the truth or would Toshiro leave taking away the first light he has had in a long long time? Even though he was being as quiet as ever while still in the apartment, he was letting off more reiatsu than he most likely intended to do waking Toshiro in the proccess.

"Renji?", came the voice of the lieutenant behind him.

Renji froze and then turned slowly with some semblance of a smile on his face. "Yes Toshiro", he asked his lover.

"What's wrong?", Toshiro said. Renji didn't answer and just walked past him going to their room and falling back on the bed. Toshiro followed him into the room. "What's wrong Renji? Did something happen with Byakuya when you went out earlier?"

"...", Renji didn't answer. He didn't know how to answer. He just didn't want to lose Toshiro because of what he did knowing that if Toshiro left, he'd be alone again.

Toshiro sighed. He now knew for sure something happened even if Renji hadn't told him what. He went over to the bed and sat down by Renji stroking his hair comfortingly. "You should really calm down Renji. I know it is probably hard for you to see him doing things you had at one point wanted to do with him. And before you even freak out, I know you love me, but I also realize some things are way too confusing for one mind to handle. If you ever need to talk with me about anything just let me know. After all we will be married soon enough and last I checked I admitted to being the 'bride' in the whole thing.", Toshiro said with a light chuckle trying to lighten the mood.

It worked. Renji laughed. "Yeah you did. Almost makes me want to see my cute little Toshiro in a wedding dress.", Renji said teasingly looking at Toshiro.

Toshiro blushed. "Not happening.", he said with a playful punch to Renji's shoulder. Deciding that staying away from the actual subject at hand for the moment, he asked Renji another question. "So have you found anything to wear yet?"

Renji sighed and laid his head in Toshiro's lap. "I did not realize how hard it would be to find simple clothing for a wedding. I mean I must have looked in a dozen stores already, but everytime I find something that might work and try it on it clashes with my damn hair.", Renji said slighted animated.

Toshiro bit his lip to stop the laugh that threatened to pass them. "I see. Why not go for something that compliments your hair then?"

"Well I found this really pretty emerald green one that I thought would look nice, but well let's just say that was a bad idea.", Renji said frowning lightly telling Toshiro the story.

***flashback***

Renji was looking through the many different kimonos. He wanted to find something new and exotic to wear for his lover on their wedding day. A flash of color caught his eye and he went over pulling out a beautiful emerald green kimono with silver designs on it. It seemed to be just what he was looking for. He went into the dressing room and tried it on coming back out to show Byakuya and ask what he thought since the elder knew more about a wedding than he did.

Well Byakuya had blinked when Renji came out as if not truly seeing the sight presented to him. There was Renji with his nice tanned skin, tattoos that sort of looked like decorations at this point, red hair, and a green kimono that had some silver to it. As best as he possibly could, Byakuya told Renji that the outfit may not be the best choice for the affair and then Renji had gone to take it off.

While in the dressing room, Renji could have sworn that he heard Byakuya laughing and the captain commander's reiatsu gave off a highly amused feeling. Though when he had exited the room, Byakuya was as composed as ever.

***End of Flashback***

Renji finished the story with an even deeper frown. Toshiro looked at his lover before closing his eyes with his entire body shaking from unreleased laughter. He could just see Renji in that outfit looking like one of the Christmas trees used in Ichigo's world. However even Toshiro's restraint had its limits and he started laughing covering his mouth to muffle the sound a little bit.

Renji glared up at him. "Great first I get laughed at by the Kuchiki and now I am getting laughed at by a pocket shinigami.", he said with an angry but teasing tone to his voice. He knew how much Toshiro hated the nickname.

Toshiro kept laughing even while he hit Renji with one of the pillows trying to stop and catch his breath. "You...know...how...much...I...hate...that...nick...name...", he said gasping as his laughter finally finished.

Renji smiled softly allowing himself to laugh lightly. "Yeah I know.", he said before turning and kissing Toshiro full on the lips making the smaller shinigami fall back with Renji on top of him. Renji's tongue past his lips tasting all the natural sweetness of Toshiro...and candy? He pulled back nipping lightly at Toshiro's lips before speaking. "I thought you really didn't like candy much Toshiro.", he stated giving Toshiro a quick yet pleasurable bite on his neck.

Toshiro gasped arching slightly. "I don't but I felt bad for refusing the candy and so I took it. But then he asked if I was going to eat it and so I did.", he said gasping at another bit from the red head.

"Interesting. I think I may just have to puni-", Renji stopped hearing a knock on the door. He waited, but the person didn't go away and he groaned. "Were we expecting company today Toshiro?", he asked his lover moving off of him and straightening his clothing a bit.

Toshiro closed his eyes trying to remember if they were. "Oh. Yeah. We had another meeting with the wedding planner today.", he said getting up and straightening up his clothes as well.

"Figures. Maybe we can have fun afterwards.", Renji said giving Toshiro a quick kiss.

"No maybe. The answer to that question is yes. You are going to finish what you started Renji.", Toshiro said to him trailing his finger across Renji's torso before going to answer the door.

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Time: 12 AM

Place: Ukitake's house

A knock sounded on the front door awakening the two sleeping lovers. They had been celebrating the latest snap in the control of Renji and Toshiro in one of their favorite ways. Byakuya groaned lightly sitting up still a bit sweaty from their earlier activities. Who the hell knew Ukitake had that much stamina? Not that Byakuya was complaining of course. Ukitake had awoken at the sound as well sitting up with Byakuya.

"What was that?", Ukitake asked sleepily getting out of bed and putting on a pair of sleep pants.

Byakuya stared at his lover's body for a moment before getting up and doing the same. "If I knew who it was, they would have already met Senbonzakura personally.", he said. He really didn't like to be interupted so rudely while he was resting.

Ukitake chuckled lightly. "Yes yes of course.", he said to him and they both made their way to the door.

Byakuya opened to find no one in sight, but instead a small unmarked package in front of the door. He picked it up and brought it inside shutting the door behind him. Ukitake looked at him, but didn't say anything as the pair made their way back to the bedroom. They sat down on the bed looking at the package before Byakuya opened it slowly. Inside were two bottles and instructions on how to use them.

"It seems Jushiro that our package has finally arrived. Just in time too.", Byakuya said expressionless eyes reading over the instructions.

Ukitake picked up the bottles and looked at the two different colored liquids inside of them. "Is it correct to assume that the lighter color one is the less potent one?", he asked him watching as the younger shinigami read over the instructions.

Byakuya nodded. "Yes according to this. Well we better get some rest. We are going to be in for a lot of fun tomorrow.", he said taking the bottles and the instructions and placing them some where for safe keeping. He looked over at Ukitake who wore a smile on his features. He allowed himself to smile a bit as well before pulling Ukitake into a kiss as the two settled down and drifted off into sleep.

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Well that is another lovely chapter ladies and gentlemen. For some of the upcoming chapters I shall now introduce the death threat box. Any threats you may have towards me in the upcoming chapters please place in the box and yes I will read them. Thank you. *grins with devil horns appearing rubbing my hands together evilly* next chapter is going to be so fun...hehehehe