Desperation

“Renji.” Chad murmured softly, laying his hand on the red heads shoulder. The room was dark except for the computer screen that the tattooed man was staring at intently. The alarm clock read 4:13, the bright red numbers stark against the blackness of the dead of night. “What are you doing?” He asked, watching as Renji’s hands flew over the keyboard, not seeming tired at all despite the late hour. The bigger man sighed again as he reached down, stopping his lovers hands before he could type another word. “Stop Renji.” He whispered, pulling the other back from the computer, trying to get him to come to bed…again.

“No.” Renji said, pushing Chad back, his hands shaking from frustration and lack of sleep. “I can’t stop, you know it.” He mumbled, distracted again as he leaned forward, typing yet another search into the computers search engine. “I have to find him…we can’t just leave him out there.”

“It’s been three weeks Renji, even the police have stopped looking.” Chad said, reaching forward and shutting the laptop, much to his boyfriends chagrin. Renji had been constantly searching, combing the internet for signs of Ishida as Ichigo searched the streets, walking the dark paths night after night in search of the pale man. “You have to stop.”

“How can I stop!?” Renji suddenly yelled, pushing up and shoving Chad back, looking almost insane. “Ishida is GONE! He wouldn’t just run away like this!” He was panting by that point, his body shaking as he stood there, watching his love with wide, wild eyes. “Look at what this has done to Ichigo, he’s our best friend! How can you just give up on him?”

Chad moved forward at that, wrapping his arms around Renji’s trembling body. “I’m sorry Renji…I haven’t given up.” He said, walking the red head backwards towards the bed. He wouldn’t finish the sentence, he wouldn’t tell Renji that Ishida had left on his own…he had left not wanting any of them to know where he was going. He knew what his lover needed, he needed to forget, he needed to feel that he was still loved even if he felt worthless right now. “Just let me take care of you Renji, we’ll look again in the morning.” He murmured, his voice deep as he moved the other back a bit, leaning down to kiss him softly. He would do whatever Renji asked…he would look to the end of the world even if he believed Ishida had chosen to disappear. Renji was his world and he would do anything for him.

Renji sighed softly, feeling some of the desperation and panic recede as he was touched by Chad, the others large hands soothing him expertly like they had hundreds of times before. He didn’t struggle when he was laid on the bed, the mouth moving on his pressing harder and hotter, making his mind slow before blanking. It was blissful really, he had been so worried about finding Ishida for weeks that his and Chad’s…relationship had been sorely neglected…more like, it had been nonexistent. This was just his boyfriends way of reaffirming their status with each other, reaffirming how important they were to one another.

Chad released Renji’s hair first, combing his hands through the silky locks as he kissed the other, making sure to keep their lips connected, knowing the embrace would stop the smaller man from thinking for at least a few moments. He was always very careful with the redhead, knowing if he moved too fast, if he didn’t prepare him right, he ran the risk of severely injuring Renji and he never…never wanted to do that. The brown haired man pulled back just a bit, his hands pushing up the others shirt, revealing his scarred chest. Apparently Renji had been a fighter at one time, someone very aggressive and dominate…right up until when Chad had showed him how freeing and…pleasurable submission was.

The next things to go were Renji’s pants, his underwear following moments after. Chad leaned down at that, taking the others length into him mouth without preamble, sucking and licking him just like he knew he liked. Renji was Chad’s main priority now…he was worried if Renji didn’t stop and just relax, he was going to compromise his health. He couldn’t let that happen, Renji was far too important to him. He grinned at the soft cry Renji released, showing his pleasure in the most basic of ways as he arched his hips, pressing his erection deeper into Chad’s warm mouth.

Renji cried out again when he felt one of Chad’s calloused hands on his balls, rubbing and rolling them as he sucked on him, expertly teasing his head and slit. He knew he wouldn’t last long, he never did when Chad focused on him like this, intent on driving him over the edge as fast as possible, as many times as possible. “Anng…Chad!” He cried out when the bigger man suddenly swallowed him down all the way, holding him deep in his throat as he slid his hand down to tease at his entrance, just barely pressing against the fluttering hole.

Chad hummed softly before he pulled back, letting Renji pop out of his mouth with an almost obscene noise. “I know what you want.” He whispered before sliding down a bit more, tilting Renji’s hips up a bit more as he spread his lovers legs, exposing his entrance to him more fully. He leaned down after that, dragging his tongue along the others entrance, reveling in the deep, needy moan he received from Renji. He had to hold his lovers hips down as he licked him, as he prodded against his entrance with his slick tongue, just barely pushing it inside before pulling back and starting the process all over again.

Renji could barely take it, his body shuddering as he arched, trying to get Chad’s tongue deeper inside him, wanting it to touch that most sensitive spot even though he knew it wasn‘t long enough too. He held back as long as he could but he didn’t last for much longer, the large hand moving over his erection as well as the slick tongue moving inside him pushing him over the edge in a record amount of time. He cried out when he came, his entire body shuddering as he pressed up into the others hand, trying to press down into his tongue at the same time. The orgasm left him panting against the bed, his cum splattered across his chest as well as Chad’s hand.

Chad only gave him a few moments to recover before dragging his hand through Renji’s cooling cum, using it as makeshift lube as he started to prepare his lover for his broad length, knowing Renji would need the extra sensation to fully relax and give in to sleep. It wasn’t his only reason though…he knew they both needed this, it had been too long since they were together and they both needed the oblivion that only sex could give them. He went as fast as he could, pressing one, then two and finally three large fingers into Renji’s entrance, spreading him wide and teasing him in the process, just barely touching his prostate before moving his fingers away again. It wasn’t long before he was shifting, pulling off his own clothes before positioning himself at the others entrance, using the rest of Renji’s cum to slick himself before starting to press forward, slowly pushing the wide head of his length into the others body.

As soon as Chad hilted, he pulled back out, starting a rough, hard…mind blowing pace, pressing himself in and out harshly, knowing Renji needed the pleasure laden pain to forget and relax. He pulled Renji into a deep kiss, holding the smaller body close as he thrust into him, moving hard enough to bounce Renji up on the bed each and every time he pounded into him. It was harder then he normally went, his gentle nature not letting him treat Renji this harshly often. He was normally very gentle, he normally took his time and pushed Renji higher and higher until he was begging to be fucked, begging to cum.

Even without the gentle treatment and teasing touches, Renji was begging to cum mere moments later, his hands gripping and scratching at Chad’s shoulders as he pressed up into him, his erection twitching and leaking against his stomach. He arched up, gasping as he scratched down his lovers back, leaving bright red lines in his wake. “Please…Chad…make me cum…” He whined , his head falling back as one particularly hard thrust hit his prostate dead on, making his hardness jump as he cried out. He was getting closer and closer to his edge, feeling like he would cum if only Chad would do more…do something, touch him, bite him…anything.

Chad was panting as he moved, angling himself to brush against Renji’s prostate every time he pushed into his prone body. He knew how close the redhead was to cumming but he wanted to make sure it was explosive…that it broght him right to the edge of passing out…and he knew just how to do that. “Cum for me Renji.” He murmured right before he bit down hard on the smaller mans shoulder, thrusting hard and fast into directly into his prostate, making shocks of pleasure shoot up Renji‘s spine with every movement.

Renji’s nails dug into Chad’s shoulders as he screamed, his legs spreading as he arched up, cumming hard and fast from the overwhelming sensations, the bite pushing him over the edge instantaneously. He could barely breathe as his cum stained their stomachs and chests, leaving him speechless and near passing out just like Chad had planned. He fell back against the bed moments later, his body shaking as he looked up, his eyes bleary as he tried to focus on Chad, his body jerking every time the bigger man pressed inside him, trying to reach his own orgasm.

Chad followed him moments later, hilting hard as he came inside the others body, filling him with his warm cum before collapsing down on top of him, panting hard and fast, his heart feeling like it would pound out of his chest at any moment. He gave Renji a sweet kiss, brushing his hand through the red hair before pulling back with a smile, looking down at his finally dozing lover. “Good night Renji.” He whispered before laying with him, his eyes falling closed as he drifted off…they had what they needed, everything else could wait until the morning.

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It’s always dark here…or maybe I just can’t see anymore…

I can’t tell the days from the night…the only time I leave this room is when he wants me…when he takes me…

I can’t do this anymore….

I would rather die…

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"He won't last much longer." Grimmjow murmured softly, pulling his blood speckled hand through his hair, leaving bright red stripes in the bright blue strands. The room was dark, only lit by the moon that was settled high in the sky, lighting the room with an ethereal glow. Dark lines fell across the white body laying on the ground, the moonlight shining through the bars making the entire effect very foreboding.

"He still has some fight in him." The other man murmured, smoke rising to the ceiling from the smoldering cigarette caught between his lips. He raised his hand, the moonlight glinting off his glasses as he pushed them up his nose, looking down at the battered teen laying at his feet. Ishida was laying sprawled on the ground, the only sign he was still alive the rising and falling of his frail chest. His pale skin was sunken and bruised, his own blood dripping from the numerous cuts and gashes along the delicate surface. He had been brutalized…abused harshly by the man he had used to call master.

“I don’t know how much more I can do without killing him.” The blue haired man said, squatting down beside the prone teen to press his hand against one of the cuts on Ishida’s side, pulling a pained whine from his throat. Grimmjow was mean…a bastard with a haunted and blood stained past but he wasn’t a murderer…not anymore. He wouldn’t kill for this man, no matter how much he paid him…no matter if he was the man that funded his club. He had barely beaten the last murder wrap, he couldn’t get caught up in another one.

“He brought this on himself.” The elder man said, stepping forward, the moonlight glinting off his silver hair before leaving him in the shadows again. “He knew the consequences of his actions.” He reiterated, an evil glint coming to his eyes at the pained sound, he seemed to revel at the pain and despair laid out before him. Ishida deserved this, he had warned him but…the boy had ignored him. Now he had to reap what he sowed.

Grimmjow stood, grinning a bit as he licked animalistically at blood on his hand, a feral smile on his features as his eyes raked over the other mans form…they were so much alike. “Whatever you say.” He murmured seductively, walking up to the other man and dragging his hands up his chest, tugging him close before pulling him into a heated, blood tainted kiss. “Anything for you.” He rasped into the kiss, a pleased noise coming from his throat when control was taken from him, strong hands gripping in his hair as his mouth was plundered. He gasped when he was released, almost falling back before grinning and speaking. “Ryuuken.”

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AN: AHHH!!! Look at that! A longer chapter!!

Ok, so, this is KIND OF a filler chapter, I wanted smut and I had some people they wanted smut so here is it.

BUT!! There is PLOT in this chapter so you need to read it!!

It’s not one of those chapters that can be just skipped, if you do, you’ll miss a certain developed me (*whispers* why Ryuuken stopped the search)

ANYWAY!!! *giggles*

I hope you all like it! Thank you so much for reading and remember, fav’s and comments are loved! They make me all happy.