Leave Out All the Rest

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Ok here Hitsugaya ends his tale and the afterward of Gin\'s and Aizen\'s betrayal. Thanks again, for reading, commentis, alerts and favorites I really appreciate all of that. I also want to thank Rachel for her help with this chapter.



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Chapter 4



Make a decision



Hitsugaya sat on his hospital bed looking down at his hands while Unahana-taichou told her about the recent events.



As she started talking, Hitsugaya’s mind drifted to his own memories. The memory of Hinamori lifting her sword against him because of the words of a dead man, and later on a traitor. He remember the mocking smile that Gin send his way when Hinamori had attacked him, or the moment Matsumoto stopped Gin’s sword to protect Hitsugaya’s best friend. He remembered the words Gin had whisper to him before leaving.



She is mine.



Hitsugaya sighed a little tired, then he looked up at Unahana-taichou. The woman was looking at him with a sympathetic smile.



“Yes, Hitsugaya-taichou?”



“I…its Matsumoto-fukutaichou here?” Was all Hitsugaya could ask. So far Unahana-had told him the general aspects of the treason; Hitsugaya had understood that Aizen, Tousen and Gin had left…but, he needed to know, he just had to know what had been his fukutaichou’s choice.



“She was here the day before; but now I believe she is in your division.”



“I see.”



A sighed of relief escape Hitsugaya’s mouth; he nodded and couldn’t help the small smile that appear on his face. She didn’t left; she didn’t choose Gin over…over …over what? Her duty? Her friends? Her taichou?



Unahana watched closely at the young taichou. She knew those emotions, with a soft smile she left the room, hoping that Matsumoto-fukutaichou wasn’t too hurt for Ichimaru Gin’s treason, otherwise not only she but her young taichou will suffered in the near future.



Hitsugaya stood up and walked towards the window, he looked out to see a boy with orange hair running away from a grinning Kenpachi and an equally grinning Kusajishi. The young taichou blink several times to made sure he saw correctly before shocking his head at the group’s antics. Moments later Unahana-taichou appeared with that smile of hers, Hitsugaya smiled at the effect she had on people when Kenpachi decided he was better out of the fourth division and the orange-haired boy let himself being escort inside the fourth division.



-Do you feel better Toushirou?-



‘Yes, thank you. How about you?’



-Humph, it takes more than that to hurt me…though I have to say that my pride suffer a lot.-



‘Sorry I failed’



-You didn’t fail Toushirou; we weren’t prepare for a situation like the one Aizen and Gin present to us. But, we are going to be next time.-



“Yes, next time Aizen won’t make a fool of us.’



They fall into a comfortable silence in which Hitsugaya’s thoughts were on his fukutaichou and the last few months after her birthday.



Something between them had changed after that.



It was a slow change, and it was so suddenly that Hitsugaya at first thought it had been his own mind playing tricks on him.



The first of these changes was her relationship with the third division Captain, they didn’t talk as they use to and Matsumoto usually spend her work time and her free time with her friends or Hitsugaya. Of course the young taichou didn’t lie to him, he knew, or at least suspect, that Matsumoto was thinking about the offer Gin had made the day after her birthday.



The second of those changes was the way she behaved around him. She was more enthusiastic and …she enjoyed making him blush with her comments that in some situations they seemed more like flirting than anything. Again, Hitsugaya tried to not thing to hard about it; but he couldn’t help the feeling of happiness inside of him at those changes.



“Taichou?” Hitsugaya’s thoughts were interrupted by that familiar voice. The young taichou turned around to see his fukutaichou at the door. She was a little paled, she had bags under her eyes and her eyes were red. Hitsugaya’s heart clench in pain at the mere thought of his fukutaichou crying or feeling any sort of pain.



“Matsumoto.” He greeted, Hyorinmaru was screaming at him to go over there and kiss her, hug her…to do something. But he didn’t, he stayed there looking at her and she stood there looking at him for what seemed to be an eternity.



Then, Hitsugaya found himself unable to breath properly due to something soft pressed against his face.



“Taichou, I was so worried.” She said letting go of the young taichou. Hitsugaya took a deep breath before looking at her in the eye.



“Sorry I make you worried.” He said.



“It’s ok, I am glad that you are now on your feet, but shouldn’t you be resting Taichou? I heard from Unahana-taichou that you just woke up.”



“No, I think I had sleep long enough.” He said giving her a grateful smile. “How are you doing so far Matsumoto?”



The question made the young woman tensed up, she evade Hitsugaya’s eyes before answering that question.



“I’m fine Taichou. I was really worried about you and trying to help out with the paperwork on the division.”



Hitsugaya frown but said nothing, he knew and understood that when she was ready she will probably talk about it with him. At least that’s what he hoped for.





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When he returned to work the next day he found himself with a depress fukutaichou.



The woman was trying to hide it behind the sake she shared with Kira, or the jokes she made, or the light conversation she was trying to make. Hitsugaya saw, minute by minute, how his fukutaichou tried to bury the pain Gin’s betrayal had left in her. And Hitsugaya hate it, because it made him remember Gin’s words: She is mine.



He watched her got drunk, got Kira and Hisagi drunk. He watched as her eyes full of pain invited him for a single cup.



“Hitsugaya-taichou?” Hitsugaya turned to see four members of the fourth division. The young taichou signaled Hisagi and Kira.



“Please, take Kira-fukutaichou and Hisagi-fukutaichou to the fourth division. I think the drunk more than they could.” The shinigami nodded their heads before taking away both men.



Hitsugaya waited until they had disappeared before he made his way to the room beside his office. In there was his fukutaichou, sleeping peacefully.



“What I am going to do with you?” he said caressing her cheek, she stirred and opened one eye which scare the young taichou and made him blush at the mere thought that she may have hear him or felt him when he touch her cheek.



“Taichou!!!! You’re here!!” she screamed trying to stand up. Hitsugaya rushed to her side when she stagger and almost fall on her face.



Hitsugaya grabbed her on time, Matsumotot giggle and then started babbling about cats. Hitsugaya was trying to get a hold of the woman but the fact that he was too short was making it really difficult.



“Oh, Taichou!!!” she purred and Hitsugaya felt his cheeks go warm at the sound of her voice so near his ear. “Taichou, my little taichou…did you know that Haineko and Hyorinmaru had something??”



“What?”



-Y-yeah, what? That woman...she must really be drunk …right?-



Hitsugaya shook his head and ignored his zanpakuto’s nervous words and he tried to focus on her fukutaichou once again.



“Yeah…she told me that he was so much better than Shinsou in bed…it made me wonder…would you be better than Gin.” Hitsugaya almost drop his fukutaichou at those words that were followed by a pleasure feeling on his ear.



-Really? She told her that? Oh, my sweet, little…-



‘Shut up!’



“Matsumoto, you’re drunk. I…I better take you home.”



“Such a gentleman Taichou!!” she said giggling again and starting another babbling, this time about dragons.





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Hitsugaya had left Matsumoto on her futon before going over the fourth division for something that could help his fukutaichou with the hangover. When he was back, he cursed his stupidity.



Matsumoto was sitting with her back against the wall, a group of at least ten bottles of sake around her. He walked towards her and kneeled in front of her. The woman was babbling but stopped when she tried to focus her eyes on him.



“It….it’s you…Toushi-taichou!!!” she said, the smell of alcohol made him turned his face for a moment before looking at Matsumoto with a worried expression.



Until that moment, he hadn’t noticed how much Matsumoto was affect by Gin’s betrayal. This situation only made him aware of Matsumoto’s affections for the man, and Hitsugaya hate it. He hated the fact that Gin has her, he hate the fact that Gin had left behind a broken Matsumoto.



“Oh, Taichou…you don’t have to pretend…I don’t really care…” Matsumoto’s words reached his ears breaking his thoughts about Gin. He looked at Matsumoto confused but before he could say anything the woman continued her talk.



“Don’ worry…I won’t tell anyone I got drunk…the Tenth Division reputation is safe…” she said letting out a humorless laughed that send shivers down Hitsugaya’s spine.



“Matsumoto, “he whispered not really knowing what to do.



“Nope, not need to pretend you worried…why should you? I am just something that can be thrown away and be forgotten right? She said. “Just like Gin…just like him choose Aizen over me. Just like Taichou choose Hinamori…”



Hitsugaya went to touch her cheek but stopped himself, hesitant at what to do or how to react to the current situation.



“No one cares…no one should…”



Matsumoto’s hand grabbed another bottle and she was about to drink when Hitsugaya hand stopped her. The both of them looked into each others eyes for a moment.



“I do care about you Matsumoto.”



Hitsugaya voice is soft and full of concern, his other hand caress softly Matsumoto’s cheek and the woman close her eyes leaning into the touch. He knew he shouldn’t. He knew it would be better to just get her to sleep and then leave, or maybe just take all the sake away from her.



He felt his heat clench in pain at the sight of her suffering, at the sight of her thinking that she was a mere object, that none cares about her. He lean closer to her, not really knowing what he was about to do.



“Let me…let me show you.”



And as those words left his mouth he leaned in, his lips caress softly hers. At that moment, when he started moving his lips against hers, the entire world and the consequences of what he was doing were totally forgotten.



At first she didn’t respond; but after a moment or so her lips started to move and Hitsugaya melt completely into the kiss, his hands going to her waist while her hands grabbed him from his haori.





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Hitsugaya finished his story looking everywhere but at his grandmother. The old woman sat there, thinking over the few things Toushirou had told her about his relationship with Rangiku-san, and how that relationship had change the year before.



“I know…I know I was stupid for doing what I did. I know I should have left as soon as I could but…”



“Do you love her?” the question startled Hitsugaya that looked at his grandmother opened-eye. The woman already knew the answer to that particular question but, she suspect that Toushirou need to hear it out loud.



“I…I…” Hitsugaya trailed off. Here he was facing the feelings he was so afraid to face, so afraid to admit because of the repercussions that may have on his life.



“Toushirou, I am asking you this because if you are not in love with her, then you should stop this nonsense. “ Those harsh words surprise Hitsugaya that looked over at his grandmother. “You two have sex, what about it? I bet you enjoy it and that’s it.”



Hitsugaya blushed harder at his grandmother bluntness, he was about to say something but apparently the old woman wasn’t finish.



“You should go back to normal and try to forget about that depression you are in and, if Rangiku-san remembers what you two did last night, then you probably should apologize with her. “ said the old woman looking directly into Histugaya’s eyes.



Hitsugaya looked at his grandmother and his thoughts and memories were overwhelmed by images of Matsumoto smiling, fighting, talking animatedly with him or her friends, running away from job or him when she did something particular idiotic. Of her dancing, kissing him in the cheek, kissing him in the mouth…memories of the night before.



“I do, I love her Granny, more than I care to admit.”



“Good, then the only advice I have for you Toushirou is this: Fight for her, conquer her love her and make her yours. “



-Have I ever told you how much I like your grandmother?-





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