It's Enough

I decided to do a Yaoi fic for Pride. This is dedicated to all of my friends and family of
choice out there. Yumi and Ikkaku are EXTREMELY out of character please don’t
flame me for this one. I can’t make it to Pride this year as much as I want to. I decided
to create this as my show of support this year. (Little hint if you’ve helped a family
member move a tonne of junk and recycling out of their apartment do NOT forget to take
a muscle relaxant before you sleep it’s a BAD idea when you have a weak back
ESPECIALLY if they’re on the third floor.) This is also an attempt at writing from one
person’s point of view for the entire fic. I even reviewed ep 118 to get the dialogue it’s
probably different from the manga.

A special shout out goes to Liralen Li, StarkBlack, TheAmethystAlchemist, KivaEmber,
GwenWaverider, HeukYa and several more (the list would be six pages) for their
wonderful bleach yaoi fic that helps inspire me and keeps Rysh and I in stitches or tears
whichever.


We don’t own bleach but we do love it. Please don’t sue. We promise to let them
escape after we finish tortur…. Ahem… play with them.

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The nightmares always start the way the fight did. We’re standing on a random street in
Karakura at night with that strange kid that was in Ichigo’s class. An Arrancar appears
and Ikkaku decides he wants to play.

“Aren’t you going to help him? That Keigo kid said “you’re his friend right?” If only he
knew.

“Do you not see what is really going on? Look how happy he is Ikkaku is having fun. It’s
been a long time since he’s fought someone this strong. It’s not that I must help him but
instead I must not help him you understand don’t you? ” I had said and I had acted
indifferent when my heart was in my throat. I had never told Ikkaku how I felt about him
how much his friendship meant to me how much a part of my heart and soul he had
become. That human child had not understood blathering on making little sense until he
said

“What the hell’s wrong with you, what if he dies?”

“That’s obvious” I replied “He’d be satisfied” he would but I wouldn’t I’d be heart
broken I would avenge him and then join him. Ikkaku traded quips with this strange
arrancar playing with him letting him think he was weaker. The arrancar released his
zampakto ‘Volcanica’ and the fight really began in earnest Edorad Leones… that was the
name it gave. Its true form was as ugly as its name. Its sprit pressure made me aware of
just how much damage could be done so I reached into my robes and took out my phone.

“The destructive power of the enemy has vastly exceeded our predictions. Please put a
spatial freeze within a radius of 300 units around Madarame Ikkaku. I’m afraid that a
number of souls will be caught within. The cost of the buildings will come out of the
mission’s budget, as always. The protection of souls is our top priority.” I went on to
request similar freezes around Hitsugaya Taiocho, Rangiku, Abari, Rukia and Ichigo.
The last I said because I knew if I had to avenge him it needed to be done. “Also please
start preparations for Madarame Ikkaku’s military funeral.”

The kid started blathering again until he saw the look on my face. I think he realized just
then what Ikkaku meant to me. Just then Ikkaku went into Shikai and was blasted into
the street. That creature was taunting him telling him to admit defeat give up be a
virtuous warrior. Ikkaku sneered at him and his zampakto’s shikai was snapped. I knew
what that meant… he was going to use his Bankai I had only seen it once before when he
first attained it. It was truly one of his most beautiful moves. He then proceeded to get
beat up to wake up that lazy ass Houzukimaru I never understood how such a strong
warrior as my Ikkaku would have such a lazy zampakto. Then in a beautiful manner, that
only Ikkaku could pull off he kicked that arrancar’s ass. That was how it went but in my
nightmares later it ended quite differently. In my nightmares his Bankai shattered that
arrancar then, he died of his wounds.

“IKKAKU!!” I woke up screaming and crying. It was almost a month later we were back
in the Soul Society he had survived and I had still not told him how much he meant to
me.

“Yumi!” Ikkaku yelled crashing thru the door his zampakto drawn. He saw my tear
streaked face and sheathed his sword. He knelt down next to my futon and as he had
done almost every night I had this nightmare he pulled me into his arms and reassured me
he was still here still alive. This time however was different. This time he scooped me
up into his arms and carried me into his room.

“Ikkaku?” I asked as he laid me on his futon then crawled in beside me.

“Yumi” he said after he had settled by my side. “What’s wrong? You’ve never had
nightmares after I’ve had a bad fight before. Why is this any different?” I closed my eyes
and took a deep breath.

“Ikkaku… That fight made me realize something” I said. He started to speak and I
quickly cut him off. “Let me finish” I knew if I didn’t say this quickly I would chicken
out. My head was hoping he would still be my friend after, in my heart I hoped he would
be more. “It made me realize just how much you mean to me….not only as a friend but
more. I love you Ikkaku Madarame, as more than just a friend.” I lay there waiting for
his reaction, hoping he didn’t kick me out of our apartment, out of his life completely it
was not a beautiful feeling. He stared at me shock written on his face. I couldn’t take it I
started to get up I needed to get out of there away from his staring. His hand caught me
before I could move more than a few inches from him.

“Yumi? You love me?” His voice was so tender so beautiful. He gently pulled me into
his strong arms. I whimpered as he gently brushed my hair from my eyes. “Oh my Yumi
I love you too. I should have guessed what was wrong. You’ve never had nightmares
about me before” he kissed me then his lips almost hesitant on my own. We made love
that night tender and gentle at first, then passionate primal. I didn’t know what this war
would bring but now I have Ikkaku for as long as we have. It’s enough.

This story as I said earlier is for pride. It’s also dedicated to the men and women that are
serving all over the world in the military, weather they are gay straight or bi. War is an
uncertain time and I hope they can have love. I also admit I wimped out of doing a love
scene but right now my whole body feels like I’ve been used for live Steele sword pells
(it’s kind of a sword dummy) I have a migraine from hell going and Yamma-Jii’s damn
computer lost most of my work last night so Rysh and I have been pulling stuff from the
disks to finish this and the next chapter for odd bird and thank Kami-samma that he had
the foresight to back everything up in an external source as a surprise for me.


Musical List of Inspiration:

Linkin Park

With you animation remix
Leave out all the rest

Evanescence

Broken
Lacrymosa
Anywhere

Within Temptation

What have you done now?

The Calling

Wherever you will go

Little side note there’s a great yaoi amv to Wherever you will go for Shunsui and Jushiro
fans on Youtube write me I’ll send you the link if you can’t find it