The Drug That Binds Me
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The Drug That Binds Me
Ishida was the drug that bound him…and he would never be able to let him go…
Ichigo hated when they were apart…no…that wasn’t strong enough a word. He DESPISED when they were apart. It made him feel like he was missing a part of himself…like he had lost something that he was fighting so desperately to keep close to him. These times…when they slept in different beds or when they weren’t touching or just when they weren’t…together he found himself thinking…and him thinking wasn’t always such a good thing. It could lead to depressive thoughts that made him just want to curl up and cry. Not that he would tell anyone…no one needed to know that he had a soft spot…or that he even cried at all.
He knew what Ishida was like…he knew what he did but he didn’t care. Ishida could go out and fuck or be fucked by whoever he wanted…as long as he came back to him. All Ichigo wanted was Ishida to come home to him. He knew he’d never have the man to himself…no matter how much he wanted. Ishida himself might not be unattainable but…a life solely with him was. It would never happen…just them, no one to the side…a totally monogamous relationship that could never be broken apart…That didn’t stop him from trying though…he was still fighting as hard as he could to keep Ishida with him…and just with him.
Ichigo couldn’t help but think Ishida would leave him…he had given the Quincy everything he could…everything he had. He had given him his virginity…all of his virginity. He had given him his heart…his love…his life. There was no more he had to give Ishida but…he desperately wanted to give him more. How much more incentive could he give the other man to stay with him? Now that Ishida had all of that…what more could he want?
Why else would Ishida want to stay with him?
Ichigo could deny he was falling into a depression…he had, had far too much time to think and he had started thinking there was no other reason for Ishida to want him anymore. He certainly wasn’t the best sexual partner he had ever had…he was probably close to the worse sexual partner he had ever had actually. He didn’t have much skill…or experience or, well…anything to do with sexual expertise. He was a complete novice that Ishida would have to teach everything too…why would he want to go through that anymore? It had to be a bother to him…an annoyance that he didn’t need to keep going through. Ishida couldn’t want this anymore.
Ichigo hadn’t started sleeping around to catch up with Ishida…nothing like that had even crossed his mind. He had only slept with Shinji because he wanted to learn…he wanted to learn more so he could please Ishida more. He thought if he could please his lover, he would keep him for a very long time.
He had always had problems with his self esteem…
Ichigo couldn’t help how vulnerable he was around Ishida, he just couldn’t help it at all…He just trusted the other so much, he would give up anything and everything for Ishida because he had his total and utter trust and nothing…NOTHING could change that. Ichigo would trust Ishida until the day he died…probably even after that. What good was being a Shinigami if he couldn’t keep Ishida even after he died?
Ichigo loved him.
With everything he had…everything he was.
Ishida didn’t know how deep Ichigo had fallen. Romantics said that when you’re truly in love with a person you’ll die for them…you’ll do anything to protect them. Ichigo had hit that point and gone past it long before Ishida and him were even lovers. The first time the archer had been injured, he had felt like he had gone through it with him…and when he had almost been kidnapped…Ichigo had freaked, feeling like a part of his heart was being ripped out and stomped on over and over again. Ishida had no idea how deeply in love Ichigo was but Ichigo knew and…he wanted Ishida to know too. He wanted to be loved…he needed to be loved. He needed to be held and cuddled and…taken care of. He needed to know that Ishida wasn’t going to leave him and that their relationship would last through all of this. He needed to be reassured that he was wanted and loved…
Only Ishida could do that for him, no one else.
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AN: *wiggles* So...i was feeling really bad and i read a story by loveyourflyingv and was like...i wanna write a companion piece so...i did!
*giggles*
So this is the companion piece to:
http://yaoi.y-gallery.net/view/554773/
By:
http://yaoi.y-gallery.net/user/loveyourflyingv/
Well, i hope you guys like it, remember, favs and comments are loved! remember to check out V's story too!
Ichigo hated when they were apart…no…that wasn’t strong enough a word. He DESPISED when they were apart. It made him feel like he was missing a part of himself…like he had lost something that he was fighting so desperately to keep close to him. These times…when they slept in different beds or when they weren’t touching or just when they weren’t…together he found himself thinking…and him thinking wasn’t always such a good thing. It could lead to depressive thoughts that made him just want to curl up and cry. Not that he would tell anyone…no one needed to know that he had a soft spot…or that he even cried at all.
He knew what Ishida was like…he knew what he did but he didn’t care. Ishida could go out and fuck or be fucked by whoever he wanted…as long as he came back to him. All Ichigo wanted was Ishida to come home to him. He knew he’d never have the man to himself…no matter how much he wanted. Ishida himself might not be unattainable but…a life solely with him was. It would never happen…just them, no one to the side…a totally monogamous relationship that could never be broken apart…That didn’t stop him from trying though…he was still fighting as hard as he could to keep Ishida with him…and just with him.
Ichigo couldn’t help but think Ishida would leave him…he had given the Quincy everything he could…everything he had. He had given him his virginity…all of his virginity. He had given him his heart…his love…his life. There was no more he had to give Ishida but…he desperately wanted to give him more. How much more incentive could he give the other man to stay with him? Now that Ishida had all of that…what more could he want?
Why else would Ishida want to stay with him?
Ichigo could deny he was falling into a depression…he had, had far too much time to think and he had started thinking there was no other reason for Ishida to want him anymore. He certainly wasn’t the best sexual partner he had ever had…he was probably close to the worse sexual partner he had ever had actually. He didn’t have much skill…or experience or, well…anything to do with sexual expertise. He was a complete novice that Ishida would have to teach everything too…why would he want to go through that anymore? It had to be a bother to him…an annoyance that he didn’t need to keep going through. Ishida couldn’t want this anymore.
Ichigo hadn’t started sleeping around to catch up with Ishida…nothing like that had even crossed his mind. He had only slept with Shinji because he wanted to learn…he wanted to learn more so he could please Ishida more. He thought if he could please his lover, he would keep him for a very long time.
He had always had problems with his self esteem…
Ichigo couldn’t help how vulnerable he was around Ishida, he just couldn’t help it at all…He just trusted the other so much, he would give up anything and everything for Ishida because he had his total and utter trust and nothing…NOTHING could change that. Ichigo would trust Ishida until the day he died…probably even after that. What good was being a Shinigami if he couldn’t keep Ishida even after he died?
Ichigo loved him.
With everything he had…everything he was.
Ishida didn’t know how deep Ichigo had fallen. Romantics said that when you’re truly in love with a person you’ll die for them…you’ll do anything to protect them. Ichigo had hit that point and gone past it long before Ishida and him were even lovers. The first time the archer had been injured, he had felt like he had gone through it with him…and when he had almost been kidnapped…Ichigo had freaked, feeling like a part of his heart was being ripped out and stomped on over and over again. Ishida had no idea how deeply in love Ichigo was but Ichigo knew and…he wanted Ishida to know too. He wanted to be loved…he needed to be loved. He needed to be held and cuddled and…taken care of. He needed to know that Ishida wasn’t going to leave him and that their relationship would last through all of this. He needed to be reassured that he was wanted and loved…
Only Ishida could do that for him, no one else.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
AN: *wiggles* So...i was feeling really bad and i read a story by loveyourflyingv and was like...i wanna write a companion piece so...i did!
*giggles*
So this is the companion piece to:
http://yaoi.y-gallery.net/view/554773/
By:
http://yaoi.y-gallery.net/user/loveyourflyingv/
Well, i hope you guys like it, remember, favs and comments are loved! remember to check out V's story too!